as of late

my bloggin skills are lackin over time ive noticed. but thats because we've been up to a whole lot of nothin. as of late, 

one of my friends, best friends in high school, his little sister passed from a self inflicted gun shot wound to the head. im not going to sit here and go into detail. lets just say that it was a very sad situation. not fun to watch people you love go through something so hard. especially death. RIP Lillian. 

My little sister got engaged to the boy that lives across the street. Im so happy for them and have loved help plan her wedding. i guess the whole getting married young may just be a family tradition. haha

one of our cars is slightly broken atm. so its been a little annoying/stressful trying to figure out how im getting to school, or caleb to work. but i am greatful for 2 cars.

Its been in the whopping negetives this last week. the other day it was -20. thats freakin cold and no one should have to outside in it. 

My class from school  graduated and since i took a leave partially way through i still have a bit. so i am a little bummed that all my friends are gone. 9 weeks of school left and then i think im done with school forever. 

Libbie still keeps us 100% entertained. i love that little animal. 

Me and caleb are still just livin on love! 

christmas break, 2012 recap, 2013

My christmas break came and went. and it was great. over my break these are some of the events that happened.

We went and saw the house that has thousands of lights on it the light up with the radio....coolest thing ever.

Christmas eve, there was a loud knock at our door and this is what was there when i opened it. Thanks clark and Emily:)

I went and pampered myself by getting my nails done. 

i make DELICIOUS pumpkin chocolate chip cookies.

Me and caleb geared up with my family to get pulled in the sled behind the fourwheeler....frozen cowpies are how we roll;)

hahahahaha caleb's mom is allll about laughs. so he recieved this huuuge straw that were glasses. gettin to lazy to pick up his own can of soda!! come on now!

Thank you trish! i won :)

My parents went to the temple and everyone else was at work....so me, my sister Kristie, and my pup decided to make a quick run to ririe maverick for milk shakes.

Me, Caleb, and my two brothers Tyson and Lane went snowboarding which was a total hoot. freezing cold but so worth it.

Dinner with Calebs family.

Shopping with my family.

Watching loads of movies.

Getting sick....of coarse.

and thats about it! now im back in school. booooooo! but! i did pass my year final. i failed it the first time and cried like a baby at school...which was so embarrassing cause i do not cry in front of people. that was a very bad day. but its ok now, cause i passed with a B and im done with allll the bookwork for school. all i have left is my hours and boards. bring it on!

And now: a recap of 2012. Im so very greatful it was over. one of the hardest times ever.

January: I started cosmetology school. Caleb started BYU-I. Grandpa became very very ill with pancreatic cancer.

February: school, took care of gramps.

March: Grandpa passed. I failed school and lost my grant. Caleb dropped out of school due to his bad health problems. Found out grandmas cancer was back for the 4th time.

April: im still in school just truckin along. Grandma get very very ill.

May: I develop stomach problems. i went to the peerless hair show in Sandy, UT.

June: took care of grandma, i get even more ill

July: Brother graduates with a bachelors degree. I take a medical leave from school, we went camping up in Island park, took care of grandma, Grandma passed away, started school back up the day after she passed. I turned 20.

August: school school school, and still feeling terrible.

September: Caleb's stomach goes downhill and fast. doctors, hospital, and more doctors, and poorer we get. let the bills begin. 

October: I quit Big Juds because grades are failing, Caleb starts to feel a little better (notmuch), Halloween. Found out other grandpa's cancer is back for the 2nd time.

November: Caleb turned 23. Had thanksgiving. brother and sister in law and niece visited from DC.

December: I fail my huuuge year cosmetology final, mom graduates with a bachelors degree. Foundout im gonna be an auntie to 2 new babies :) christmas break, christmas and new years eve.

Now, thats just a glance at what went on. lots of crummy things happened. some not listed. but there were also good things that happened too. Thank goodness that year is over!

And now for 2013:

things i hope work out.

Graduate from school.

Make money.

Buy a home.

this hobby of mine....

so, i do have a hobby. and its called takin pictures and editing pictures. and even though caleb hates takin pictures, hes still a good sport about taking them...sorta. last year as we got christmas cards i told my self that this year i want to send them out. so today i made caleb get ready and take a grand total of about 10 min to take pictures. so here they are!

haha whoops!! forgot to zoom back out. these always make us laugh.

So grateful for my marriage and happy little family of 3 :)

stayin strong.

well, i havent blogged since thanksgiving and i do have a good explanation for that. its called we have bad luck and im trying to not blog about all the horrible things that go on in my life. but to sum it up, libbie pooped on my suuuper nice tree skirt and totally ruined it. i was so upset. so now our tree is a bit naked. i had to dye my hair back to its natural color (:( and im sad about it) so i wouldnt have to spend lots of money on it each month to keep it lookin good. ya know, just the little things that drive you crazy. anywho, ya know how i quit work like 3 weeks ago because i had my boards coming up and i just couldnt do on average 45 ish hours of school and like another 20 hours for work a week? it was too much making me hate life because i was too stressed and when im stressed it leads to other problems. well, lets just say we have had terrible luck and no im not going into detail to complain some more. so now im back at work until im done with school. it was either i go back or caleb work full time and also possibly full time doing a graveyard shifts. and i just could not handle him being here for only 6 hours of the day which he's be sleeping. i think god it just truely testing us and i know he doesnt give us more than we can handle but my heck it sometimes sure feels that way. i just have to remember what i do have and be greatful for it and that HOPEFULLY what we both have worked for so hard will pay off.
here's just a quick list of things i hope for next year:

1. a place of our own. as greatful as i am to live where we do for free rent it would sure be nice to have a place of our own.

2. money. im tired of paying for unexplained medical bills and just bills in general. (yes i know it will only get worse as time goes on)

3. to be able to eat out and not feel guilty about spending the money for it.

4. to have health insurance

5. an education and to be able to work in the field i worked so hard to get in.

6. to be able to get christmas gifts for eachother next year. even if its a pair of socks
(its hard knowing that gifts are out of the picture this year. but, it brings in the real meaning  for christmas in our home)

and thats really all. there are a lot more things that i hope to see look up but those are the few. i try to be thankful for what i do have even though sometimes its extremely hard to. things like:

1. my husband. i swear, with his stomach problems he is always so sick but he still does anything for me. i'll come home to a clean home and that alone takes the weight off my shoulders. he is working full time and getting so close to his career job getting all ready. im proud to call him my husband.

2. im thankful for my family and that i have such a close relationship with them.

3. my dog. as silly as this is, and probably all you people that dont own a pet just wont understand. but she seriously just makes me smile every single day. she does the funniest things and even when i so upset she has a way to make me laugh.

4. my schooling. as much as i hate school and going to school every day i am thankful for what ive learned there and know i will be able to use it for the rest of my life.

5. work. and same with this one. as much as we dont like work, its simply helping us live.

6. im gonna be an auntie! :)

ok thats all. i hope you all are having a wonderful time getting ready for the holidays. :)
<3 shalei

Thanksgiving

well, for thanksgiving this year we just stayed here again. Calebs brother and his wife and baby came up from washington DC so it was fun to see them. i held that baby a whooole lot and she is a cutie! We basically just stayed home, ate food, watched movies and shows and ate some more and thats about it. pretty low key. i got out from school the day before thanksgiving which was so nice. and i have the rest of the week off. its been a nice little break. Calebs still workin hard. 6 days a week. and hes now lookin into online school once im done with school so i can work and he can do school. i have only 77 days left of school. so we are gettin there! ugh i just so badly want it to be here. ive been focusing alot on state boards and we've had state board class a couple times a week. getting a bit overwhelmed but excited to be done too. im to the point now where its just like lets do this thingy and get this overwith!

Caleb's health is still the same. and we just found out that his insurance wont cover the next step we were going to do. so now idk.

my health...eh same. still have my dumb stomach issues. as soon as we get health insurance i hope to go to the doctors and get to the bottom of it cause being sick all the time is simply draining.

other than that, nothing. we are looking forward to the christmas season and all the happiness and greatness that it brings!

cute little Rayleigh bug. :)

had to take a step back

so recently, i have had these jealousy issues. i will admit that jealousy is probably one of the greatest things that i struggle with. I look at people and see that, they have a nice home they live in or they have more money than we do or they have better jobs or kids that they love or cute clothes and cute shoes. and i kept feeling overwhelmed because when i found out we were having family pictures i always have the ideal outfit in mind but of coarse i dont own any of it and shopping is something we cant do right now. or i get sometimes frustrated because i talk to friends and they are startin to talk about what they are getting their spouse for christmas and how some of the gifts that are named off are these big extravagant gifts that any person would want. and its hard knowing that this year for christmas we will simply have a christmas tree set up and then nothin to sit underneath it. but i then take a step back and realize its all ok. i too am blessed just in different ways. I have a husband that loves me unconditionally, i have a place to live in that has free rent. yes it may not be my favorite and id rather be in our very own place, but its ok. i have a family that loves me and supports me, i dont need all these gifts for christmas to make me happy. i dont need all these outfits that id love to have because i have clothes that i am greatful for. i will have my own kids someday and timing is different for everybody. i work hard and am going to school to be successful in life. so its all ok. sometimes i get in over my head and i just simply need to take a step back and realize that i too am blessed.

happy birthday to caleb!!

yesterday was Calebs 23rd birthday! unfortunaly, he had work, and had school. birthdays just arent as fun as they used to be. we kept it pretty low key. since he turned 23, i cut up 23 hearts and on each one wrote a reason why i love him and then hid them throughout the house so he'd find them throughout the day. and then the worst news, he didnt even get his present on his birthday. in fact, he still hasnt gotten it. its getting shipped here and of coarse its not here by the day i need it. im a horrible wife. haha good thing caleb just simply doesnt care and is just content with sitting at home doing nothing. :) and as for other news, i only have 88 days left of school. not toooo shabby right?? haha so i am staaaarting to see that small light at the end of the tunnel. i cannot WAIT to be finished !! other than that, nothing. happy birthday caleb!! i love youuuu!