Monday, September 26, 2016

Boise, 10 months, and random

Last weekend we headed to Boise for a wedding. It was Caleb's boss that was getting married. The wedding was on a Sunday so we left that morning, got to Boise, checked into our hotel, then headed over to the wedding.
This was seriously the only picture I got. Woops! The wedding was nice and it was fun to see our friends :) After the wedding, we headed back to the hotel. We only stayed the one night. That next morning was kind of a disaster. Both me and Caleb were not feeling well and to top it off, Kinley had fell off the bed. I felt absolutely awful. I literally turned my back for a second. I knew better. Scared us all but after a bit, she seemed to be ok. Just a conk on the noggin. :(

Kinley had a yucky head cold a couple weeks ago.
Even with watery and red eyes she was still smiles. Poor girl. 

Over this last weekend, my sister and her family came up from Utah again to celebrate her son's 2nd birthday. We had a party on Saturday which ended up being a lot of fun. 
All the grand babies

This weekend I came down with being sick. It's been kind of awful. I don't know what it is but I have felt pretty cruddy. I am grateful for Caleb when times like this happens because being a mom and an adult when your sick just stinks. Especially when It's bad enough you literally just want to curl up and not move. Luckily tonight I think I might be on the mend. Hopefully another day or two and I'll be feeling back to myself.
Thank goodness this girl adores her dad. Makes it a little easier knowing she is in good hands while I take care of myself. 

On Sunday, Kinley turned 10 months old! I cannot believe it. We have had this sweet girl for almost a year. Man time flies. At 10 months, our Kinney bear....
*wears both 6-9 mo and 12 mo clothes
*size 3 diapers
*18 lbs (45%)
*points to everything with her cutest little stumpy finger
*had her 1st tooth finally cut through as of a few days ago
*horrible sleeper both day and night
*walks along the edge of things
*absolutely adores her dad
*crawls to me and wants a bite of everything I eat
*loves to "help" with the dishwasher and laundry
*into anything and everything
*laughs at her own toots (kinda crude and inappropriate at times, yet hilarious) 
*still loves to play under the kitchen table and in the chairs
*has become very sassy and has quite an attitude but is otherwise totally sweet and hilarious 

She seriously has been so fun. I feel like each new stage brings on some hard challenges, yet more fun things to enjoy. She's made me learn more about myself and what life is all about. I couldn't imagine my life without our sweet Kinley! She makes us laugh every day!

And here are some random pictures.
Morning snuggles and wicked bed head haha

Just being cute

I could stare at this sleeping baby all day in a non creepy way. So innocent and sweet. Melts my heart and my love for her could make my heart burst.

We've had some cool fall days with lots of rain. Our favorite! She loves to go to the window and just watch outside.

Just our usual daily snuggles.

And this is her new thing. I love them squishy lippies! Such a ham!





Thursday, September 8, 2016

6 years, Labor day weekend, and random updates

Me and Caleb celebrated our 6 year wedding anniversary on the 4th! I don't really have a bunch to say other than it's been an amazing 6 years! The power went out the day we got married along with our day this year as well. For 3 stinking hours might I add. Haha I guess we are just planning on the power being out on holidays since it was out on my birthday too. So, we weren't able to even make us a nice dinner like I had planned. What do ya do. Eat chips, sit in the dark, and talk. Haha.

That morning, our niece was blessed, so we went to her baby blessing.

Happy Anniversary my sweet husband of mine! I love him so so so much.

Labor day weekend ended up being a lot of fun! My sister had come up from Utah which is always fun. Saturday, most all of the family last minute drove to Fall Creek Falls, It's really a very pretty spot!

Monday was Labor Day, so we met up at the zoo that afternoon, then ended back at my parents for pizza and treats. 
Compared to the last time we went with Kinley, she showed a little more interest this time which was kinda fun. She was actually looking at the animals haha

All my siblings and our kids. Just missing Caleb, and my sister's husband. 


Tuesday, the day after Labor day, me and Caleb decided to go out for a late anniversary dinner since our anniversary was on a Sunday and the power outage didn't allow out to even have a good meal at home. So, we went out on a date! We did a couple errands and then decided to try out the Snakebite. Honestly, we didn't love it. There was a hair in Caleb's food and they messed up my order which is no surprise because literally EVERYWHERE messes my order up. Now we know though and it was still fun to go out!
Our cute dinner date tag along :)




So this last week I have gone through Kinley's old clothes, and FINALLY gone through every bit of my closet and separated what was going where. I tried to sell some of my nice clothes and NO one was buying them and I had like 4 people fall through. It was just a continuous hassle. So, I figured as bad as it sucks, I need to just di them. Otherwise they will just sit in my closet for no reason. 
For Kinley, I had put this outfit in a bin a while back with a bunch of her older clothes even though it still fit her. I stuck it in there because every time I saw it, I was reminded of the awful seizure she had at the restaurant. This was the outfit she was wearing and the same day we went down to Primary Children's the first time. I couldn't help but be reminded of our very emotional, scary, exhausting time in our lives every time I saw it. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with it. It was cute and had only been worn twice. I didn't want to keep it where I would see it a lot, yet I felt almost sad in a way getting rid of it because this particular outfit just reminds me of a big thing our family and especially our Kinley went through. I ended up sticking it in the di bag mainly because It brought back too many bad memories every time I saw it and I figured getting rid of it would probably be the best option for me. It's bittersweet in a way. Kind of a weird feeling that I don't know how to describe.

And this here is all of my clothes getting hauled away. Again, it was bittersweet getting rid of clothes! Especially because certain clothes remind me of certain memories. For the most part, it was refreshing knowing that I was getting rid of things that brought back bad and negative feelings I had toward myself at the time. The shirt I was wearing the day we found out we were pregnant, or a favorite shirt I remember I could no longer squeeze myself into, the one I specifically remember wearing at one of our fertility appointments. To be honest, they mostly weren't the best memories. It was a very hard and pretty depressing time in my life when I was wearing these so It's nice knowing life has gotten so much better since and I'm throwing out the old and slowly bringing in the new. 

Got one of my walls decorated

Kinley loves to go to the sliding doors and watch outside, especially if dad is out there working :)

I ended up taking Kinley to the doctor because she had been pulling on her ear for a good few days. Turns out it's most likely teething. 

I've been going through Kinley's clothes and had to pull out 12 month clothes :( Pulling out fall clothes and putting away summer clothes. That part makes me happy!

Just because she very rarely falls asleep like this! The best feeling!

Mornings. hahaha I feel ya girl. 

And just cause she's cute :)





Thursday, August 25, 2016

9 Months!

My Kinney bear is 9 months old! She gives me absolutely zero down time and keeps me very busy and wants my attention at all times. Even though she is non stop busy, she's also at such a fun stage.
At 9 months, Kinley...
*Weighs 17 lbs
*Is in mostly 9 month clothes
*Size 3 diapers
*Worlds worst sleeper. (After talking to her neurologist, that could be caused from the meds she is on for her epilepsy. We're in the process of figuring it out.)
*Is now in her own room and sleeping in her own crib at night
*Officially crawling
*Pulls herself up into a standing position
*Gets into EVERYTHING
*Favorite place to play is under the kitchen table in the chairs
*Is a HUGE daddy's girl anymore and will cry every time he leaves the room
*Still obsessed with Libbie
*Says mumumum and occasionally dadada but I would say her first official word is mom
*Loves to be out and about
*Still teething but no teeth yet

Here's a couple more pictures.
Kinley is officially 4 months seizure free as of the 20th. That is a huge milestone and we couldn't be happier. Lets hope it continues!

We sure love you sweet Kinner bug. Happy 9 months!



Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Update and Primary Children's

I haven't blogged for nearly a month. Probably because I've been super busy and Kinley keeps me from having zero down time haha. We'll start with all the random updates.

A couple weeks ago, I had my mom come with me to a podiatrist appointment so she could tend Kinley. Stop reading if you get grossed out...but, ever since I had Kinley, my big toenails had stopped growing completely. They are just now starting to grow and she's nearly 9 months old. Where they have now started to grow, you can now see a new nail that's growing underneath while the top one is starting to fall off. After being terrified that they may amputate my toes or something and long story short, he didn't really know why this was going on and that he's thinking that my hormones affected my nails. This happened once before right after I had that laparoscopy surgery a couple years ago. So that too leads to the same kind of thing...hormones. We're gonna watch them and see what happens but when Fall comes around and we still aren't seeing improvement, we will remove my nails and start fresh. So, yep, that's my news. Having a baby is causing my toenails to fall off and grow new nails. It's embarrassing because it's once again, just another weird thing that happened to me and something I had never heard of on someone else. Having a baby took a huge toll on my hair, my nails, and my skin. All three are very different than before. Maybe one day I will have good hair and nails again.

Since having my vinyl cutter, I made Kinley a cut out for her room. That thing is kind of a nightmare to work with. After many frustrating moments and wasting many feet worth of vinyl, I got it done. It didn't turn out how I had planned in my head but I'll keep practicing and replace it later when I get better.

I FINALLY got my bathrooms put together since moving here. I hadn't had bathroom rugs or a decent shower curtain so now we do. 

Last Monday, Kinley was extremely fussy and I just could not figure out why. She was extremely clingy and I had done all I know to do. Then that night, she came down with a cold. I felt so bad! That night was probably one of the worst nights to date since having her. We both literally did not sleep. Me and Kinley had my bed and Caleb ended up on the couch so he could get some sleep since he had to work a 15 ish hour shift the next day. Lets just say, snot covered both me and her head to toe along with my pillows and blankets, there was a lot of crying and not being able to breathe, lots of snot sucking, and lots of cuddles. I felt so bad for her. She was miserable all night. So all last week, she had been sick and just not feeling well and we both were exhausted from the lack of sleep. It was a long week. 

She NEVER falls asleep like this. As awful as it is when they are sick, I sure do love the snuggles.

Here's some random pictures.

One of her favorite spots to go play.

She started crawling a couple weeks ago and has now started to pull herself up to a standing position. Big girl!

We got her a new car seat so it would be more comfortable for our road trips. Big box to play in!


Out to dinner.

Haha! We play this game a lot. So far, the record is 5 of those blocks. :)


Hanging out at my parents while uncle Tyson holds the babies.

I seriously love having a little buddy to hang out with during my days while Caleb is at work. She's so much fun! 

Static hair haha and I had cut a good inch off the top too.

She makes the funniest faces sometimes.


Now onto SLC. So on Sunday, we loaded up and headed to SLC because we had Kinley's appointments.


After myself then waking up with a raw sore throat and a chaotic morning, we finally left and got down there around 6 that evening. We checked into our hotel, ate dinner that I had made and brought, watched the movie Taken, and just hung out.

Monday was the day of her first appointment. This was the one we were especially nervous for. We were meeting with the Metabolic Genetisis. We were nervous because we were left hanging at her last appointment with what could possibly be wrong. There was so much frustration and phone tag trying to get this appointment even made. I had NO clue if they were going to do more testing, or if she had a blood disorder like the Neurologist thought or what. So we were a bit hesitant.
Long story short, the doctor believes that the super high blood results and urine was caused FROM the seizures. He wanted to re run them just to see if they had gone down again since she had been seizure free for a while now. So that overall is a really good thing! The other levels that were high are caused from her having a b12 deficiency which makes me kinda feel like a crummy mom even though I know it's not my fault. Long story short with that, when we were going through infertility. my OB put me on a medication that I am still currently taking. Where I am breastfeeding, sometimes this particular medication makes it so I myself cannot absorb the b12 let alone pass it on through my milk. So it could either be the medication, or something about my body making antibodies and having it so she can't absorb the b12. So depending on her blood results, we'll know if we need to do b12 injections or not. He does not believe she has a blood disorder which is GREAT and he doesn't think that the high levels is anything to be worried about and that as of now, she's just got epilepsy and that that is what we need to worry about. We may be seeing him in 3 months depending on the results of the blood and urine tests. We left feeling good about everything.
We came back to the hotel where we ate lunch, Kinley took a nap, and we kinda just hung out. We were on a budget and we both were just tired, had headaches, and not in the mood to do much. We made a quick trip to Wal mart for a couple things but then came back to the hotel for the rest of the evening. The trip wouldn't be complete without dealing with a blowout. I took care of that the best I could haha. It was seriously a FUN night. We had nothing to do but to sit on the bed, let Kinley play with her toys, and talk. We talked for hours, laughed till we cried, and it was just a FUN night. 



Tuesday, we got up, packed up, and checked out of the hotel. 
We then had to go to her Neurologist appointment. That appointment went well too. She's 17 pounds of cuteness which actually makes her quite petite. She's a petite girl with a big head. haha. 

That was just a follow up appointment. Kinley hasn't had any seizures since they put her on the 2nd medication. We decided to start weaning her off the first medication called Keppra since it was proven to do us no good in the first place. I'm a little nervous and hope we have no breakthrough seizures but I'm happy because I wonder if when she gets taken off of it if she will sleep a little better. Not sure. The biggest side effect to that medication is cranky and irritability. So we'll see. Since they have to check the medication level through her blood, we then had to go get her blood drawn and a urine sample done. To collect the urine, they have to put a certain bag in her diaper and then just wait till she goes to the bathroom. So, they put that in, then did the blood work which went better than previous times. The nurse got the vein on the first try and was a lot more "tender" which was exactly what I was praying for. I know we can't NOT do the bloodwork so I always just hope we get a good nurse that's kind, gentle, and can nail it the first time vs poke and praud for ever. Kinley still screamed through it and I had to hold her down while they did it. It's brutal and doesn't get any easier. After that, we were kinda there to just hang out and wait till she peed in the bag. We decided to eat lunch there at the hospital to kill time. While we were eating, she ended up going and since it's a bag, it's not really leak proof. So I too got peed on. We headed back to the lab where they took the urine. Then that was it! We loaded up and headed for home! We got home that night. We have a follow up in another 3 months. I got a call back today and we are again upping the dose of her medication. It's a lot of adjusting with the meds where she is growing and it goes off of weight. I just am SO so grateful for an overall good weekend with positive appointments. I had worried myself sick multiple times ahead of coming down. I had a lot of stress and anxiety, and I maybe whined a lot about coming because I was just scared of knowing what was to maybe come. I am SO so grateful for Caleb. I seriously am. He helps me chill out by doing nothing but being himself which is always just hilarious. He makes me laugh every day and me laughing helps a LOT with the stress and worry. He just made the trip fun even though traveling to see doctors isn't your typical fun thing to do. I love him so very much. I am also so very grateful for Kinley and that things are now looking up. That was one of the scariest times in my entire life dealing with what we dealt with and there is just no better feeling knowing your baby is growing, developing and learning, and is healthy.Yes we deal with a baby that has Epilepsy, but as of now, it is managed and that makes this mama very, very happy.