oh the memories...

so as most of you know, my grandma past away from her 4th time of reoccurring breast cancer last monday night. i unfortunately found out at work and i was waitressing that night so im sure people gave me some interesting looks because my eyes were bloodshot and puffy. by the end of the night i called my mom and bawled like a little baby. i am actually somewhat relieved that she is no longer suffering. and i cant help but think that her and my grandpa are now holding hands, giving eachother kisses on the cheek, and dancing. my grandma's funeral date and my grandpas passing date was exactly 5 months apart. yes, two funerals not even within a half a year. hard stuff. i got the privilege to tend my grandma a little bit before she passed. and i feel as though we drew alot closer just by me sitting in her room holding her hand and haveing some very close talks. we laughed together, and cried together.

I now have alot of memories going through my head of me and my grandma. here are some:

she sewed absolutely everything. i remember walking a pair of black jeans over to her because i had a great big hole in the crotch. she of course could work her magic and fix em right up. when i later went back to pick them up, i got so mad because she had sewn them up with bright blue stiching so it was totally noticable. and the worst part, was that she had also patched up a meant to be whole in the pocket with the same stiching. needless to say, they are still hanging in my closet and i never wore them after that. haha and now that i look back on it, i think its hillarious.

I used to sneak into her raspberry patch and she seemed to always have a way to catch me.

riding home from church with her.

eating her delicious home made bread and jam.

having sleepovers

her coming on vacations with us

having sunday dinners with her and grandpa

her and grandpa coming over every christmas to see what santa brought

going over there every christmas eve for stories and rootbeer floats

helping her can basically everything

helping me sew a baby blanket for my dolls

how she came into school and got a pedicure with her sister :)

and just sooooo many more. i could go on forever. i love that i got to grow up next house to theirs. i saw her about every day. what i loved most about my grandma was that she was the sweetest, caring, most humble lady i know. i miss her warm bear hugs, and kisses on the cheek. but now she is reunited with her dear husband and im greatful for that. i love you and miss you sooo much grandma!


as for other news, i started school again this last week. and my first day back, they scheduled me a spiral perm 1/2 hour before my lunch. cool right? no. i never eat breakfast so i didnt get to eat till 5:30 that night. i thought i was going to die. welcome back shalei right? ugggh. i made it through a week. and im proud. i usually have to take it week at a time, day at a time, hour at a time and sometimes minutes at a time. i have to tell myself all the time, "ok, i made it through class, now if i can make it to lunch im ok. ok i had my lunch break, i can finish this, ok its time for duties" ya know, i realllly have to break it down. school is sooo tough i just almost cannot stand it. oh well, im half way through. ill put my big girl panies on and get it done.

Where all the family is up for the funeral, i got to see all of my cousins. I especially loved my little cousin Isaac. He's 2 and so sweet. i read him stories while we snuggled until he fell asleep on my shoulder, went outside to look at the lambs multiple times, swang in the swing, ate yummy food and hung out with the family.

well, thats basically all thats new here. im greatful for a great husband thats helped me through this rough week. and this rough year. boy am i ready for something great to happen. i love him so much.

i unfortunately only have one picture from all this.

what a cute little bug huh :)