so as of lately, all i have wanted to do is seriously rip out my hair. i have been sooo stressed its killing me! since i took a medical leave this last quarter, i learned that 3 days before my final that i had to make up every test that i missed, which in 4 weeks, i missed 6 tests. so my instructor says to me, study for the final, but i wont make you make up all those tests this week....which really doesnt solve anything because i never learned the chapters so i had to teach myself anatomy and physiology and skin structures blah blah all in one week. so i seriously got to studying. in 2 days i attended about 18 hours of school and put in 10 hours of straight studying. i left early for school so i could study for my final one last time and guess how i did?? not great. frustrated?! yes, to the point i cried a little in class. embarrassed? dont care. and you all know how i have anxiety issues...the morning of my final i was soooooooo sick. dizzy to the point i fell over in the shower, nauseous, couldnt eat, and terrible stomach ache. so i went, took my final, and then came back home to calm down a bit. so that test was last friday. so now this week i want to get all my tests DONE. so studying, studying is allllll i have been doing. i feel like i have been a caged animal even towards my husband. i feel like i never see him, never see anybody or do anything but school and sleep. anyways, enough of my rambling of school, lets just say i am more than ready to be done.
my goals after these tests is to find some time to exercise. even if its takin my dog on a walk. or to simply just get outside. where we live in a basement appartment right now kinda stinks because truely, you never see outside the windows are so small and the blinds are always shut. and at school you are in a building all day with not too many windows to look out of. so i love to just go outside and enjoy some fresh air. sad thing is, is that its starting to get darker early which makes me sad.
as for other news, i came down with a cold...just my luck right? pretty sure its all the stress. im sure it cant be helping. ive gained like 3 pounds cause all i want to eat lately is little ceazars pizza. dont know why but it has just HIT the spot lately. yesterday (monday) before work me and shandell got to play with out little buddy talon. always so much fun! and last but not least, i bawled to my sister at work the other night and when i woke up the next morning i realized that the reason i was bawling to her was quite embarrassing and really pathetic of me. im not tellin you peeps why cause its just too embarrassing. haha well, other than that, its just been me, caleb, and libbie just hangin around the house being our cute little family of 3. :)
we went to the pound, and i could have taken every single one of those pupps. so cute.
feeding the ducks.
me and my libbers.
