34 weeks and update!

34 weeks pregnant!? Oh my goodness we are getting down to the wire. Sorta. It's like it's so close, yet so far away!

The bump. Gettin reaaalll large.

As far as this last week and how things are going, i'd say overall I feel like crap, yet the pregnancy is going good. I had my doctors appointment today and even though I feel very pregnant and honestly pretty crummy, I couldn't help but walk out just feeling so so grateful! My blood pressure looks great, my weight gain is a pretty small amount which I'm very happy about, I have no swelling, my belly actually measured right on track this week rather than two weeks ahead, baby girls' heartbeat was a good 156 bpm, I found out I can continue my heartburn medication which makes me VERY happy, and overall, the pregnancy is just great. I'm healthy, she's healthy, and it like makes me proud and just happy knowing that my body has been able to give this baby a life and that things are just going really good. As far as how I'm feeling is kind of another story. haha. It's all definitely normal, but this week especially I feel like a lot of the first trimester symptoms are creepin back into my life which makes things hard sometimes. The nausea is back a lot. I'm seriously exhausted tired. As in, I've been sleeping in till at least 11 every day. The other day I slept in till 12:30. Horrible, I know. But I'm seriously just so so wiped. My appetite is fading and I find that the food aversions are coming back and that food just never sounds good anymore. I get STUFFED full feeling after I eat like quarter of a sandwich. Smells really bother me again. My sleep is just horrible. I have to literally grab my mattress to help roll me to my other side. I toss and turn all night, get up to use the bathroom multiple times, and just cannot sleep throughout the night. My hips have been throbbing at night especially. I have yet to find something that helps them besides a bath. I feel like my lungs are getting squished so it doesn't take much for me to feel out of breath. If I drop ANY food on the ground I just call for Libbie rather than attempt to pick it up. She's usually happy about that anyway. haha. I am overall very uncomfortable and just getting so anxious to meet this baby of ours. My doctor said today that if things are going good and if I am thinned out any and dilated at all that he will induce me at 39 weeks if she hasn't come before then. So, that's only 4.5 weeks away! It's hard to know what to plan for because obviously it could realistically be anywhere within 3 to almost 6 weeks till we meet her. Something I am VERY excited about is that tomorrow is the FOR SURE day we are moving ALL our crap into my parents storage unit thing so we can set up a baby room and get EVERYTHING put into place for when this baby comes. It's basically like we are moving, but not because we are staying in the same place. It's gonna probably take all weekend to do so, but, I'm just excited to get everything set up, organized, and ready for this baby! I feel like we are cutting it fairly close, but, ah, I just can't wait to get her clothes washed and ready, her crib set up, the changing table all ready, just everything. I'm excited. 

As for other things this from this last week.

The diy headbands that were at my baby shower that never got made I finally got around too. It was kinda fun to make them how I wanted and they took up a decent part of my day which was nice.

I had been feeling a bit blue the last few days just because I have been home alone allllll day by myself and not feelings great. So yesterday, I got up, got ready, and forced myself out of the house, I met up with my sister in Idaho Falls and ran a few errands with her. It felt so good to get out, and get some fresh air. 

No worries, I didn't actually drive with him on my lap. Just look at his squishyness! I love that boy!

My belly this last week has just been rollin and doing waves non stop. One day she was going crazy in there and I look down and my belly seriously had a bulge on the top right. It was completely lopsided. I could feel her right under my rib and kinda had to push her back down because lets be real, I don't think any mom likes to have her ribs feel like they're being separated. haha. I feel like I'm constantly asking her what in the world she is doing in there?! So amazing!

I also did 6 haircuts on my family on Saturday. Whew! Everyone was due for one. And that's pretty much been my week. 

Caleb has once again been working hard and LOTS of hours. It really depends on the week of how many hours he gets so some weeks it's normal and other weeks like this week he gets plenty of overtime and also works 6 days a week and still has to go out on Sunday for about an hour. I'm definitely proud of him. I'm a bit selfish and do get pretty lonely when I'm here alone allll day long. Waking up alone and going to sleep alone, eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner alone, it all get's kinda lonely. But, I'm grateful, and soon enough I'll have a wee little one to take care of during the day to keep my busy. I'm grateful he works so hard so I can stay home and will be able to stay home to be a momma. I am grateful for his positive attitude about his job and him seriously NEVER complaining about work or anything really. He keeps me laughing every day. He is definitely the best part about my life and every day. I love him oh so much!

Maternity pictures/ 33 weeks!

Tonight I had my sister Kristie take some maternity pictures of me and Caleb. Caleb was just oh, SO excited to have them done. ;) He's a trooper. The deal was he would do maternity pics with me if I gave him x amount of massages. A deal's a deal. And that's how we roll. haha! I would eventually SOME day love to get some professional pictures taken. We've never had them. Over the past years we've always just taken them on my phone. They work for now to get some nice pictures, but yes, I would like some professional ones someday. For phone pictures I feel like they turn out pretty decent.

I really liked this one.

And this one. Caleb is such a hunk!

And these two.

So yes, today I am 33 weeks pregnant. I am feeling VERY done. 7 weeks to go and I couldn't be more excited. My friend was induced today to have her baby which means out of family and friends, I'm NEXT to have a baby. YAY! Baby girl has officially found my ribs this last week. She lives under my right one all day and night which it totally comfortable. Not. Sleep is basically non existent anymore. It takes me like 2 hours every night to fall asleep, and then between having to get up to pee at least twice, braxton hicks contractions when I stir all throughout the night, my hips and/or back throbbing, me being hungry or thirsty, it's near impossible. Pregnancy insomnia is totally winning. Overall though the pregnancy is still going great and for that I am grateful. I just hope these next weeks fly by. Baby should be weighing over 4 lbs now, is over 17 inches long, and about the size of a pineapple. She's just chinking right up! I can't wait to have a squishy baby to hold soon! So excited :)

My baby shower

My baby shower was held on Sat. Oct. 10th at 6 that night at my parents house. Rewind to planning the shower. I never realized how much work it took to planning something. I feel we kept it fairly simple yet hours and hours and hours were put into planning, lots of money was spent by the time you get the food, decorations (even if they're cheap), and everything planned. I am grateful for my mom and sisters' help into planning this special day for me. Because my mom is working and I am not, I volunteered to buy pretty much everything to help her out. So I met up with my sister one of the days to buy some decorations. The other stuff I just bought at walmart while I was out and about. I ended up ordering a diy headband making kit off amazon. When I received it, I had to put hours of time into cutting around each flower because they were all sewn onto a tulle fabric, along with having to cut the elastic and gluing them together to make the actual headbands. I wrote and sent out all the invitations, and also made the party favors. My sister met me at my parents house the day before the shower to bake the cupcakes (because she had the tin for them) and also plan the games because we still had not figured out exactly what we would be doing. We spent all day mainly chatting and procrastinating on everything. We did get a couple things done though. On Sat. I woke up early and met up with my mom to do the shopping for the food and any last minute items we needed for that night. We then came back to my parents and spent ALL day prepping food, getting games ready, and doing the decorating. It was warm, but fairly breezy that day and I was expecting a decent amount of people to show up so we ended up setting everything up outside. We braced the wind and just went with it hoping the wind would die down that evening like it usually..ok sometimes.. does. 6 o'clock rolls around and guests started to show up. There wasn't quite as many people that showed up as I was expecting, so I suppose we could have done it inside and avoided the wind, but, what do you do, just go with flow. I'll just post the pictures now because they basically show the evening.

While getting everything ready for the night, my sister came in with a diaper cake that her, my mom and two sisters' had made for me. Definitely made me feel special and I was IN LOVE. It screams me with all the pink, glitter, and decorations. LOVED IT.

Just a few decorations on the front porch.

A bunch of my ultrasound pictures I have gotten over the months. Just a decoration piece. 

Kinda hard to see in the picture, but this was one of the games we played. There are 3 baby pictures of Caleb and 3 of me. The guests had to guess how old we were in each photo.

Party favor and gift table.

This was the diy headband station, something I was VERY excited about. I had never seen this done at a shower and thought it would be fun for guests to do while waiting for other people to show up or if people were mingling or whatever. After the night was over, only 1 headband was made. So, sounds like I will make the rest just how I want them to be ;) 

These were the cupcakes my sister made. They turned out SO delicious. We went with a pumpkin cupcake with cream cheese frosting. Perfect for a fall shower.

The guests. All family but one.

The party favors and game winner gifts. These were kind of a nightmare. Long story short, I had to run to the store 3 different times to get these baggies filled with candy because I kept running out. I didn't expect to have to buy so much candy to fill the bags! The guests got pretty much every candy you can think of because there is quite the variety in them. haha

The party favors, game winner prizes, and gift table.

The table cloths are actually pink, bad lighting I guess. This was for when the guests first arrived. I needed them to write their name and address on an envelope. The rocks were last second weights we gathered from the driveway because the wind kept blowing anything and everything off the tables.

I had "give the mommy to be advise" cards that was also on the table when they first came in.

The food table. Dinner was sandwiches, chips, fruit with dip, vegetable tray, cupcakes, water, and a  slushie drink aka sherbet and 7up. 

Doing the games. We played 3 games. The first was how old were we game? The board above with a few of mine and Caleb's baby pictures. 2nd game was unscramble the words game and they were timed. And the 3rd, was a baby scategories game. I didn't want to spend a lot of time on games so these few just took a small amount of time which I liked. 

My best friend Katie from when we were babies came to my shower. I had not seen her since hair school! It was so so good to see her and catch up. Miss that girl! Excuse the fact that I look like a whale.

Opening gifts.

Again, opening gifts. I received a bunch of home made blankets. So thoughtful of the people who took the time to make them! I am SET on blankets. I also received just a few nick knack items. A wipes container, a couple toys, a few books, thermometer, a couple sleepers, a book that can document all things adorable and stats and what not for baby girl, a thing of lotion and bum cream, a couple outfits, and crates for baby girls' room. I appreciate everyone that came and supported me and our baby and took the time out of their day to stop by. We kept the shower short and sweet and it lasted just over an hour. It was SO windy that I think everyone was done being outside. haha After everyone left, I told my sister that I think I had a million braxton kicks contractions just during the shower. I'm supposed to go in if I have more than 5 an hours but this has happened before and it's usually just from me overdoing it. She insisted I sit down. It had been a huge couple of days that were non stop going so I was sure my body was just telling me to sit and be done because I was way overdoing it. We got everything cleaned up from outside and was organizing and putting away everything in the house. I finally was able to go home and boy was I wiped by the time I got home. I didn't do anything but talk to Caleb and go to bed. The next day I don't think I have ever felt so sore in my life! My contractions definitely slowed way down, but my legs, hips and back were just so so sore. So, Sunday, I didn't do a thing. I sat, and I rested, I went and did the order at Calebs work with him, and then I sat and rested some more. Today, (Monday) I am feeling much better. Being that sore and realizing just how limited I am is just showing how close this baby is to being here! I feel bad when I just need to sit or am not much help because I am needing to sit, but it's true that there really isn't anything I can do about it. Just makes me feel bad watching instead of helping. Anyway. Now that the shower is over, I can REALLY see what all we need to get and can start getting everything ready for her arrival. I still feel like there's tons to get and stuff to do. So, one day at a time, and I have just been breaking it down and doing little by little as time goes by. I'm SO excited to meet this baby girl! I want it to be December already! 

32 Weeks

8 weeks left! Hopefully a little less :) Not too much less, but I'd be ok with her coming in 5 weeks. We'll see what happens!

There's that bump! I actually took this last week sometime but it's basically the same as now. So, it'll do. I am for sure feeling done with being pregnant. I want to feel myself again, I want my clothes to fit, I want to be able to do every day things that I feel I can't do anymore. I want my energy back, to be able to bend over, sleep on my stomach, and to be able to walk without feeling like I'm going to pee my pants. I don't mean to sound whiny or ungrateful, but, I'm pretty sure every pregnant person gets to this point at some time. The closer it gets, the more emotional I find myself. In a good way though. I think it's the fact that she's like actually a little baby in there and her moves and kicks are so much stronger that it makes it just very very real. My belly is large and I can watch it just roll with baby girls movements and kicks which is just awesome to watch and feel. I find myself crying happy tears often because while going through infertility, I got to such a low point where I seriously thought I would NEVER get to experience this. It being here, and having it now just weeks away makes me feel so blessed and just happy that I will be able to experience motherhood-the thing I've wanted my entire life. I can't wrap my head around it sometimes. Something interesting that I want to note, I don't know if it's just me, or if all people that have dealt with infertility feel this, but, I often have a cloud of guilt hovering over me. I secretly love all the stares I get when people's eyes go to my belly, yet, I often wonder if any of those eyes that stare are eyes of people that are going through what I had gone through. I always wonder what people are thinking. Is she dying inside because she wants so bad what I currently have? Are people thinking, oh look, another prego, (it is rexburg, a highly family populated city), are people excited or happy? I just remember back when dealing with infertility that any time I saw a pregnant woman, I could not help but get super jealous or sad because I SO badly wanted to be in their shoes. I will never know what lives these people live or what trials or hardships they have or are facing, all I know, Is that, I wish so badly that I could take the pain of hurt, sadness, and hopelessness away from any person that struggles with infertility. I sometimes wonder what made me so lucky to experience this and why this couple that's been struggling longer than we ever did still isn't. God's plan is interesting. I for sure have had my eyes opened because of going through this trial and wonder if not having gone through it, if I would be as aware to others as I am today. Anyway, I know that's kind of all over the place, but I wanted to jot down my thoughts. 

I did have a doctors appointment last week along with another ultrasound. Everything is looking perfect. My belly itself still measured a couple weeks ahead, but the ultrasound looks right on track with everything, so they aren't worried at all. The ultrasound showed that baby girl has some hair! I was dying! The tech said it looked long already too. haha I'm super curious what she will look like! Even if she came out a baldy, I will still be thrilled. But, if she came out with a full head of it, I will probably just die over it! It's the hairdresser in me ;) She also is measuring in the 50th percentile for everything. So seriously, just perfect. I know ultrasounds have been wrong with babies weight, but I also know that they are right a lot of the time too, so with that being said, she was 1 oz shy of 4 lbs! And this was last Thursday. So if that's the case I'm sure she is a little over 4 lbs now. Crazy! I know of a few babies born at 4 lbs if not smaller. I'm SO grateful and just feel so blessed. She has the hiccups a lot, which, to be honest, are slightly obnoxious in my opinion. Caleb was able to feel them the other morning which I loved, but, poor thing! I hate hiccups and I feel like she either gets them like 3 times a day or none at all. 

My baby shower is Saturday and I think we have most of it planned. It's mainly last minute things we have to do. I'm hoping it flows well and that what we have planned will be fun for our guests. I'm not a huge party person so I mainly want to keep it short and sweet. 

As for news besides baby news, nothing. Haha. Pretty much same old same old.