Thanksgiving

well, for thanksgiving this year we just stayed here again. Calebs brother and his wife and baby came up from washington DC so it was fun to see them. i held that baby a whooole lot and she is a cutie! We basically just stayed home, ate food, watched movies and shows and ate some more and thats about it. pretty low key. i got out from school the day before thanksgiving which was so nice. and i have the rest of the week off. its been a nice little break. Calebs still workin hard. 6 days a week. and hes now lookin into online school once im done with school so i can work and he can do school. i have only 77 days left of school. so we are gettin there! ugh i just so badly want it to be here. ive been focusing alot on state boards and we've had state board class a couple times a week. getting a bit overwhelmed but excited to be done too. im to the point now where its just like lets do this thingy and get this overwith!

Caleb's health is still the same. and we just found out that his insurance wont cover the next step we were going to do. so now idk.

my health...eh same. still have my dumb stomach issues. as soon as we get health insurance i hope to go to the doctors and get to the bottom of it cause being sick all the time is simply draining.

other than that, nothing. we are looking forward to the christmas season and all the happiness and greatness that it brings!

cute little Rayleigh bug. :)

had to take a step back

so recently, i have had these jealousy issues. i will admit that jealousy is probably one of the greatest things that i struggle with. I look at people and see that, they have a nice home they live in or they have more money than we do or they have better jobs or kids that they love or cute clothes and cute shoes. and i kept feeling overwhelmed because when i found out we were having family pictures i always have the ideal outfit in mind but of coarse i dont own any of it and shopping is something we cant do right now. or i get sometimes frustrated because i talk to friends and they are startin to talk about what they are getting their spouse for christmas and how some of the gifts that are named off are these big extravagant gifts that any person would want. and its hard knowing that this year for christmas we will simply have a christmas tree set up and then nothin to sit underneath it. but i then take a step back and realize its all ok. i too am blessed just in different ways. I have a husband that loves me unconditionally, i have a place to live in that has free rent. yes it may not be my favorite and id rather be in our very own place, but its ok. i have a family that loves me and supports me, i dont need all these gifts for christmas to make me happy. i dont need all these outfits that id love to have because i have clothes that i am greatful for. i will have my own kids someday and timing is different for everybody. i work hard and am going to school to be successful in life. so its all ok. sometimes i get in over my head and i just simply need to take a step back and realize that i too am blessed.

happy birthday to caleb!!

yesterday was Calebs 23rd birthday! unfortunaly, he had work, and had school. birthdays just arent as fun as they used to be. we kept it pretty low key. since he turned 23, i cut up 23 hearts and on each one wrote a reason why i love him and then hid them throughout the house so he'd find them throughout the day. and then the worst news, he didnt even get his present on his birthday. in fact, he still hasnt gotten it. its getting shipped here and of coarse its not here by the day i need it. im a horrible wife. haha good thing caleb just simply doesnt care and is just content with sitting at home doing nothing. :) and as for other news, i only have 88 days left of school. not toooo shabby right?? haha so i am staaaarting to see that small light at the end of the tunnel. i cannot WAIT to be finished !! other than that, nothing. happy birthday caleb!! i love youuuu!