stayin strong.

well, i havent blogged since thanksgiving and i do have a good explanation for that. its called we have bad luck and im trying to not blog about all the horrible things that go on in my life. but to sum it up, libbie pooped on my suuuper nice tree skirt and totally ruined it. i was so upset. so now our tree is a bit naked. i had to dye my hair back to its natural color (:( and im sad about it) so i wouldnt have to spend lots of money on it each month to keep it lookin good. ya know, just the little things that drive you crazy. anywho, ya know how i quit work like 3 weeks ago because i had my boards coming up and i just couldnt do on average 45 ish hours of school and like another 20 hours for work a week? it was too much making me hate life because i was too stressed and when im stressed it leads to other problems. well, lets just say we have had terrible luck and no im not going into detail to complain some more. so now im back at work until im done with school. it was either i go back or caleb work full time and also possibly full time doing a graveyard shifts. and i just could not handle him being here for only 6 hours of the day which he's be sleeping. i think god it just truely testing us and i know he doesnt give us more than we can handle but my heck it sometimes sure feels that way. i just have to remember what i do have and be greatful for it and that HOPEFULLY what we both have worked for so hard will pay off.
here's just a quick list of things i hope for next year:

1. a place of our own. as greatful as i am to live where we do for free rent it would sure be nice to have a place of our own.

2. money. im tired of paying for unexplained medical bills and just bills in general. (yes i know it will only get worse as time goes on)

3. to be able to eat out and not feel guilty about spending the money for it.

4. to have health insurance

5. an education and to be able to work in the field i worked so hard to get in.

6. to be able to get christmas gifts for eachother next year. even if its a pair of socks
(its hard knowing that gifts are out of the picture this year. but, it brings in the real meaning  for christmas in our home)

and thats really all. there are a lot more things that i hope to see look up but those are the few. i try to be thankful for what i do have even though sometimes its extremely hard to. things like:

1. my husband. i swear, with his stomach problems he is always so sick but he still does anything for me. i'll come home to a clean home and that alone takes the weight off my shoulders. he is working full time and getting so close to his career job getting all ready. im proud to call him my husband.

2. im thankful for my family and that i have such a close relationship with them.

3. my dog. as silly as this is, and probably all you people that dont own a pet just wont understand. but she seriously just makes me smile every single day. she does the funniest things and even when i so upset she has a way to make me laugh.

4. my schooling. as much as i hate school and going to school every day i am thankful for what ive learned there and know i will be able to use it for the rest of my life.

5. work. and same with this one. as much as we dont like work, its simply helping us live.

6. im gonna be an auntie! :)

ok thats all. i hope you all are having a wonderful time getting ready for the holidays. :)
<3 shalei