Caleb had his followup dr appointment from his colonoscopy last mon and they said that it looked like IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) bad news. there is no way to treat it. he has been on two more different pills and the one we call his happy pill because he has been nothin but happy. even when his game crashed he didnt even get mad! it was like blowin my mind! and the second pill is for him stomach and they have surprisingly been workin out for him for the most part. maybe like 80% of the time. thank the lord!! but its better than not at all. now the problem is, is that his pills are $300 A MONTH. hello we are poor! we dont have that kind of money. whatev. we'll make it work. and for his schooling, he is wanting to take this class from EITC and earn certificates and from there hopefully he can just find a job and hopefully with that he can provide with that!
For me, ive just been busy busy busy and beyooond stressed. school has overtaken my life i feel. i so far love what i do. i dont get along with a few peeps at school and its tough cause you are next to them for 8 hours a day 5 days a week. but you know, that life. i have tests every week which are kickin my hiney. and for work. that is tough to do after you've just been on your feet for 8 hours. and as of right now i am only workin 2 days a week but i keep workin for people so its been like 3 days a week. you do what you have to do for money right?
and for my grandpa. i honestly just am praying that god brings him home. he was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreas cancer. and it is killin him. he has been in and out of the hospital for the past month and a half or so and has lost about 50 pounds in that time. he doesnt recognize you and doesnt really talk anymore. its hard especially where i have grown up next to his house my whole life. so many memories with him. every time i go home to see my family it tends to be that we are hit with more bad news about grandpa and it kills the mood and i just end up leaving. its too hard to be around it all. its constant calls like his heart may stop so prepare yourself or ugh. just bad news like every day. lots of tears have been shed.
here's a story for you, the other day at school i had the duty of cleaning to shampoo bowls. well im cleanin away and my smock(apron) cought the fossit and it full blast soaked me. of coarse everyone laughs and deep down im annoyed and embarrassed. well there was one being used still but i was done with the rest. so i go get my instructor to check it off for me and by the time she gets over there the person that was in the shampoo bowl was now gone. so my instructor tells me to hurry and clean that one then i had to do another duty. so i go over there to clean in and im just about done and yep! you guessed it. stupid stupid stupid smock catched the fossit again and this time SOAKS me. like head to toe. hair is soaked. makeup is now runnin a bit down my face. it went up my nose, in my mouth, down my whole front, on my shoes, and on my board. and of coarse everyone laughs and im trying to be a good sport about it but deep down im about to lose it. there you go. thats my embarrassing story. should be put as my middle name!! as soon as i got in my car to go home i just lose it.
seeing that i think only girls read this i'll tell you this little crazy story. i was late on my period and i have NEVER been late on my period before so i was FREAKING out right?! i was thinkin i was pregnant and how this is such not a good time. FINALLY after 2 weeks aunt flo decides to visit. thank goodness. so there was more stress put on me for 2 weeks. i guess it was stress that messed with the hormones. so yes. to confirm this. i am NOT pregnant.
Thank goodness for an awesome husband. im tellin ya, even when i just think about Caleb i get teary eyed with happy tears because i just cannot describe to you people how much i just truely love Caleb. i love him with all of my heart. he just has helped me so much through this hard time for me. the other night i was haveing a rough night and i was laying in bed kinda cryin a bit. he comes in and asks me whats really going on and what he can do to help. you know the comforting phrases. i told him that i just needed a good cry and some good sleep and that tomorrow would hopefully be better. so what does he do?? he comes and holds me and im layin on his chest and then he sings me to sleep. doesnt that just melt your heart? well it does mine. thats how lucky i am.
I get to go the pierless show (hair show) in May and me and like 5 other girls are gonna go together. im nervous cause ive never ever done anything like this before. especially with girls. im excited but have mixed feelings. so thats held in Sandy/ SLC area. so i am gonna be away from Caleb for 3 days. i know thats not that long but i havent once not slept with him since we've been married. i like my cuddle buddy at night you know?! someone to keep my feet warm ;) but it counts for 16 missed hours at school which is a big deal and is recommended that we go. so i suppose i will make the very best of it and do it.
I chopped my hairs off!! and i actually REALLY like it. it DEF helped me with my self esteem and made me feel a little better about myself. that was needed.
and for other news. work is slow and that means not as much money which means we are DIRT poor. enough said.
I feel as i have been on a never ending rollar coaster ride. and a ride thats only gone down. i have had more than i can handle right now. and im ready for this ride to work its way back up. something good needs to happen to me and i just pray that comes soon.
me and caleb got babysit our two nephews tristan and hunter the other day. probably theee most crazy kids i have ever tended.
and thats i think about all the news that has gone on. i am more than ready to run away with my husband for a romantic weekend getaway. it is muchly needed as of right now. maybe someday. and hopefully my next post is something happy! sorry ive been quite the downer lately.
Me and Hunter. what a cutie! he's a huggy boy!
we had a fun time playin with playdough. he wanted a new color every two seconds haha
And to end this post i saw a quote that i fell in love with and i often say it through my head when times get tough.
"My dear child, I've got this, remember?
Love,
God"
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