i love me some sundays :)

sunday is my favorite day of the week. no work. no school. just a day to relax. so today i....

headed to the park and layed out in this awesome 93 degree weather. i listened to some music, played some sudoku, and enjoyed me some me time. but now, im a beat red tomato. where's my aloe?!

I then went out to my parents house for hamburgers and yummy food. and after dinner i asked shandell if she wanted to go on a drive....so we ended up...

at the ririe resevoir! love this place. brings back such fun memories of my family boating. me and shandell talked and talked and talked. i could do it alllll day. especially with this girl here. 

and then on the way home we planned a girls trip!! i hope this follows through! nothing big or crazy, just some sister time. so hopefully in a week and a half we'll be headin to utah :)

anywho, hope you guys had as great of a sunday as me!

priesthood blessings :)

So last night after work, me and caleb went over to my grandmas house to see my dad and grandma for a bit. real reason of going over was so that my husband and dad could give me a blessing. ive been feeling so down about life lately and feel that nothing has gone right for so long and i felt that getting a blessing could possibly help me out. so my husband is all pretty new at this seeing that he didnt go on a mission and his dad doesnt hold the priesthood. so he got a lesson from my dad. and Caleb did great :) and let me tell you, when my dad started the actual blessing, i just broke down in tears. and i couldnt keep them back. there is something SO awesome about the priesthood and the spirit was very strong. my dad gave me such a nice blessing, and just the feeling of comfort was something i have been needing for so long. that blessing was just what i needed. and even though its not going to solve my problems i truely know that it will help me out.

after the blessing, i went and said hi to my dearest grandma. and every time i see her it is just more and more tough. she couldnt even talk. all i could do was say hello, tell her i love her and to hang in there. i gave her a hug and said goodbye. i love going to help her out and watch her if i need too but it is hard to watch someone that you love so much be in such a horrible condition, especially when all you remember is them talking, laughing, and being a great grandma.

anyways. not much more has gone on. ive stayed home the last week from school cause these side effects are wack. hopefully they die down soon.

i have now lost 13.8 pounds!! happy day!! i never thought this would actually happen! people are right about  you gain weight when you get married. but not for longer! this weight is coming off!!

well, until next time...

Happy fathers day!!

Happy fathers day to my dad! he's one of the greatest men i know! I cant wait till Caleb and i have our own kids so we can celebrate fathers day :)

Sure do love this guy!!

Later this evening, me and Caleb went out for dinner at my parents house. We ate delicious food and then the whole family went for a drive up to the windmills and down to the ririe resevoir. The windmills were absolutely insane of how big they are. especially up close! and you get an awesome view of all the windmills and Idaho Falls way down below. 

Love this boy :)

This picture doesnt do it justice but it really is a cool view. I LOVE sunday drives :)

thank goodness for moms

thank goodness for moms, awesome husbands, and understanding instructors.

this year has by far been the hardest ive ever delt with. long story short, you know how ive been sick lately, for like the past 2 + months? ive been to community care and nothin....so i finally went to the doctor yesterday and finally got some help. turns out that they think that stress/anxiety/depression is making me litterally sick. to solve this, they gave me pills right? i took my first one last night and it was pure hell from there. i was up till 3 with the worst nausea ever. light headed, racing heartbeat, and was having a huge meltdown on my husbands shoulder. of coarse complaining how i cant take any more of not feeling well every single day of my life along with alll the other stresses in life. he held me till i fell asleep. i woke up this morning and tried to get ready for school. i got in the shower and nearly passed out because im so light headed. i figured its probly not smart to go to school. deep down im more frustrated than ever. ive already missed more school than i should have but i physically cant make myself go. So i went back to bed. Caleb woke up a little later and went off to work. i texted my mom to call me when she had a second from school. and when she called later i simply fell apart. i bawled like a baby...you know..the kind that makes you basically wanna puke? and i just told her i didnt know what to about school and how ive missed so much and weather or not i should just take a medical leave so that i can get myself put back together and the side effects from these pills can subside. on the phone she told me that she was in Rigby but felt she should be here with me for a minute and that she was on her way to come see me. She shows up with some 7up for the nausea and just hugged me while i cried some more. and i tell you, that was simply what i have been needing. i dont think i will ever be too old to need my mom sometimes. she makes me feel so much better and reassures me that everything will be ok and work out how its supposed to.

later on i called my instructor and told him what was somewhat going on and what my options were with missing school and such. lets just say that he is a nice man and is going to help me through it.

Now, if i can just make it through the rest of this year, and make it through school, and that this stress will go away. i will make for a happier person.

feelin crafty

so tonight im sittin here and there is nothing good on tv to watch and im feelin crafty. one problem. we have no blocks to paint, no stencils, vinal lettering, ya know? im not sure how to make something from nothing. so im lookin around the house and seeing if anything looks old or needs a fixin up and i cant find anything. then i come across a box that had Caleb's x box in. i take a chunk of it and kinda just went with the flow. i started by painting it with a cream color, then painted on the letter N. ripped the sides, then added a bow, and DONE. now this cute little craft is hanging above my oven. simple, easy to do, and kept me occupied for an hour :)

i think i'll keep him :)

so today was my final for school and i passed :) woohoo! and so when i came home from school today i came home to this! such a thoughtful man i married!

i think i'll keep him ;)

missin my home land...

Here's whats been going on. Last friday, i didnt have work but Caleb did. so i chose to go out to my parents. and when i got out there i noticed that my sister and her cute little friend were swimmin in our pool. um hello! thats like one of my favorite things to do in the summer! so i went and said hello to the girls and i sorta invited myself. went inside and borrowed some of my sisters clothes and went swimmin with my little sister and her friend. ha i truely am a kid at heart. then i noticed my dad finally fixed our 4-wheeler! and i have not ridden that thing since i moved out of the house. so my and Lane went up on the hill to where allll of our fun trails and jumps are. rode around up there for a while and then took a ride to the cemetary to see grandpas grave. i could not stop smiling because i was having to much fun! i seriously miss where i grew up. the city is nice and all and its nice to be close to everything but i miss the country. i miss all the open ranged land we had, to be able to ride 4-wheelers down the streets and maybe pass only a car or the neighbors tractor. i love to hear the peace and quiet and the birds chirping and the owl hooting. i like to be able to ride bikes and not have to stop at each block and have weird people staring at you as you ride by. i miss being able to sing a song thats stuck in my head and pretty much not have anybody able to hear you, and i miss being next to the house to my grandparents. everytime i go out to see my family i try to go and visit my grandma too. if i could chose anywhere to live, it would be the good ol little town of Archer. I love that place.

Saturday i was on call for work and Caleb purposely didnt call me in because he knew how exhausted ive been. i fell asleep at 6:30 the evening. ive been tired.


Sunday, me and Caleb went out to our parents ward. they always have such good lessons and i swear, every time i go out there i hear a lesson and its always what i just needed to hear. After church, my Uncle blessed his baby girl Sierra at my grandmas house so she could watch the blessing. and after that we had a delicious dinner outside. and then that night i had my sister Shandell sleep over. we always have such good girl talks and its nice to spend time with her. Of coarse we catched up on some Bachelorette and ate mac and cheese at like midnight. i miss her.

Monday, Shandell had to babysit this little boy named Talon whose 2 years old whom she babysits every summer every day. and when im not doing anything i always love to help. she came over with Talon and we went on walks, went to the park, played on the toys, played in the splash park, rode the carrisel, ate pizza for lunch, and a sno cone afterwards. got sun burnt and then went to work. i love kids and every time i play with them makes me that much more baby hungry. and at work late that night i got sick...yet again...this 2 month bug still hasnt left my body. and because of it i am now down 11 pounds. no big deal. so i stayed home from school today. which im not complaining about that. its always nice to have  break from school.

And then for my grandma, you all know she has breast cancer that has come back for like the 3rd time. and this time its just gonna take her. so she has not been doing well and is sure going downhill and fast. she is going to move in with my parents so they can keep and eye on her. we pray that she goes fast so she doesnt suffer because that is proabably one of the biggest things i struggle with. i cant stand to watch people be miserable in any way. so keep her in your prayers.

anyways. thats my life lately. until next time!