pumpkaroonies

So yesterday, my whole family carved pumpkins! we were havin waaayyy too much fun too! Of course we all had better pictures in our heads of how they'd turn out but thats what makes it fun :)

Dad carved an alien, mom carved "luthy", Tyson carved his son Arlens face, Andrea carved her and and my brothers faces, Ethan carved a scary face, Shandell carved a minion, Lane carved a spooky face, and Kristie caved a horse.

Caleb carved an owl and i attempted to carve woody off Toy Story. haha definitely will have to become a family tradition! 

the small things....

So as you can see, my last post was a bit negative. But it sums up how my life has been lately. So cute little husband of mine pulls his sweet card out. Im layin on the bed in my zebra pjs and he comes up to me and says, "come on! put some shoes on. I'm taking you somewhere." In my head im like, ehhh, he never does this. What does he have in mind? What could we possibly be doing. So i say "where are we going? i just got out of the shower and i look frumpy and dont even have a decent bra on...." long story short, i put on some decent pants and he grabs the keys. We walk outside and ended up walking instead of driving. so im like YES! cause i seriously LOOOOVEE walks with the husband and he doesnt care for em. So i ask again where we were going and he of course says "its a surprise". So we were walking and he ended up taking me to frontier pies to buy our favorite pie. I dont really know how that solves me stomach because that infact makes it worse. but, him making the effort to make me feel alive for a bit and feel good because i was actually with him (our time is limited due to how much he works) makes me giddy. Its the small things that just make me love him so much. How lucky am I to have married such an amazing guy? Id say pretty darn lucky ;)

Maybe one day...

So i havent posted anything in a while and to be quite honest, its because lifes been pretty much the same since you last read. except for one thing. my stomach has been on quite the rollar coaster ride lately. i dont know what it is, but writing my life down on this blog that im sure hardly anybody even reads truly helps me. Its my way of venting almost and makes me feel much better if i write it down. I should probably do it on paper so no one has to read about my flaws in life but i am human. Humans have struggles. And if i even help one person our there from them reading this then that makes me happy. Anyways, my stomach has quite honestly made me very mad. I look back at when all these stomach issues of mine started and how it was at a time i was going through and dealing with so much. And i cant help but wonder if id be dealing with all the problems today if things were different in my past. If last year wasnt as rough as it was, maybe things would be different. I kind of find it funny that when people find out that i have IBS people instantly assume that, "oh, its just IBS". occasional stomach ache or something. And i do know that there are different levels of it. Mine sadly isnt just an occasional stomach ache. Do people not realize how much your life revolves around food? how much you should eat in one day to remain healthy, how often people bring goodies to work and offer it to you, going on vacations and going to dinner, going out with friends always ends up with going to eat somewhere, or going on a date usually involves food, family gatherings? and do people not get that its hard and frustrating to turn it away most every time? Its something i will admit that i truly struggle with. Most people love food and its hard to watch people eat your favorite something right in front of you while you politely say "no thank you". This last year and a half dealing with this annoying stomach of mine has been so hard. As sad as this is, im somewhat grateful caleb goes through the same situation because that way im not alone dealing with it. Im obviously sad he deals with the pain too, but to know that someone actually gets it is comforting. This last 2 weeks or so has been really bad. So i cant help but get frustrated. I have tried so many things and have a list of my "safe" foods but even those havent been safe lately. So its been frustrating, and quite honestly, exhausting. I dont want this post to be me being all angry or people feeling sorry for me. I hope someone reads this and knows that if your going through similar experiences, your not alone. I constantly find myself dreaming that maybe one day it will all go away. That i wont have the anxiety i do to simply go to work and have episodes. Maybe one day i will be healthy again and will be able to eat what i want without making me pay for it for days later. I suppose a girl can dream, right?? until then, i am trying my hardest to make the best of it. It could always be worse. I just keep trying to tell myself as i lay here in discomfort that, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.....right? right!

Another mushy post

Seriously, how lucky am i to have married such an amazing guy? I just can't describe and bring to words how much i love Caleb. He's such a hard worker, and such a great husband to me. Im so grateful he is mine forever and ever. Im gonna keep this post short and simple. I'm lucky, grateful, and in so much love i cant even stand it. I love you Caleb :) forever and ever with all of my heart!

it's and oldie, but a goodie :)

what am i thinking?

So this last week has been a bit crazy. Long story short, a friend of mine told me about this dental assistant program she was going through online and i INSTANTLY wanted to do it. Ive always wanted to do dental assisting. Its what i wanted to do before i even went to hair school. but i couldnt really find a place to do it. I did try EITC and it just didnt work out. So i researched and i just couldnt find anything for relatively cheap. So then my friend told me about this online school and i signed up the next day! what am i thinking? i already have a career. i remember how HARD school was for me and how much i struggled just getting through hair school. And now i just signed up for online school? where i do everything on my own? after it was all said and done, i kinda thought, "wait, why did i just do what i just did?" oh well. Whats done is done! i am excited though! I just hope a pray i can do it :) anywho, thats the newest news over here. Everything else has just been going as normal! work, work, work, and now work and school? here goes nothin! Penn Foster, here i come!