Winter, groomed, treadmill, fertility, and update

I never know what to title my posts because normally, they are all over the place. So i'm just going to break it down in order. Lets start with the weather...haha

We have been having some foggy weather as of late and I personally LOVE the fog. I think it's cool. I also love it because it causes everything outside to turn into crystals. Every tree branch, wire on fences, everything in covered in white frost that looks sparkly and so pretty. 

This here is my favorite about winter. When it's still cold out but not frigid, the roads are clear, you don't have to scrape your car, and its simply beautiful outside!

Libbie got groomed last week. Thank goodness. She looks SO much better, and i'm sure she feels so much better too. 

Isn't she adorable now? Gah! I just love her. So cute!

We bought a treadmill! Oh man this was kind of a stressful thing for me. Long story short, last summer, I kinda got into running. I got to where I could run 5.5 miles and was constantly running at least 3 miles. There were a lot of times though that I would want to go running, and couldn't..or should I say wouldn't..simply because, A. The times I could was at night and I didn't want to go running in the dark outside late at night especially by myself. B. There was times I would want to go before I showered and got ready for the day but didn't want to go with crazy bedhead (my hair was short and couldn't pull it up to hide bedhead). and C. The weather is all over the place here. I don't want to run in rain, snow, or 100 degrees. So simply buying one totally made sense. I could workout whenever I wanted in the privacy of my own home with comfortable temperatures. After looking around on Craigslist for months, and seeing if anyone was selling theirs on Rexburg Garage and Yard sales with no luck, I finally decided to just buy my own. I ended up ordering it off Amazon. It's nothing super fancy but it does just what I need. We put it in the last little space we had left in our apt so its squishy, but I don't even care! I love having it and have used it every day since...so twice. haha

Thank you Caleb for setting it up for me. :)

BOOM! works like a champ and I love it!

We found out last week that Caleb is basically famous. haha not really, but he is on the internet. You know those articles that get posted on Facebook that say something like..You Know it's Cold in Rexburg when.... and then it goes on to have a list of funny things? Well there was one that was being shared on Facebook and Caleb is in one of the pictures.

The car one is his. He's standing right next to his old white car. haha we were dying when we saw this! We have NO clue how someone got this picture either. This car accident happened back when he was I think a junior in high school. So....8 years ago? And by the way, this crash was not Caleb's fault. See how much the dark car's front window is scraped? And the police were obviously already to the scene, so it even had time to defrost a little bit. So yes, the dude ran into Caleb, and now Caleb likes to think he is famous because he is in an article that keeps getting shared. haha

I went to my sisters house on Friday to just hang out with her and Kash. It was so much fun! I love them both!

Kash sat on my lap while I rubbed his face for probably 20 min. This kid is known to NOT like to sit still for even a min. I enjoyed every minute of him relaxed and calm. haha Those cheeks kill me. So fat and kissable.

And I managed to take a sweet little picture of Kash with his momma. So so precious! 

My grandpa, my mom's dad, is in his last few days of living. He's been fighting cancer for years and it will take his life. We are all waiting for a phone call any time. It's bittersweet. When you see and hear about someone you love be in their last days, it's like you would rather see them go. I want him to go, I want him to see his wife again. It's hard for us here, but at the same time, when they are in that state, I personally like to see them go. I know I will see him again. Bless my mom's heart. A funeral will be most likely within a weeks time. Thank goodness for the gospel and the peace it brings when someone passes on. 

And lastly. Our fertility appointment was today. 

(sorry the pic is sideways)

$175 office visit and 2 prescriptions later...

I think I mentioned in one of my past posts that I decided to switch doctors. So today was the day that we met with the new doctor and let me just say, WAYYYY better experience than the last fruitcake. I walked out with so much more hope. His bedside manner was SO much better. I was way more impressed by him. I think where this doctor went through infertility with his wife for over 18 years, he was able to see and understand us and where we were coming from. Caleb liked him wayyy better too. Long story short, for Caleb, his semen analysis results weren't quite as bad as the last doctor made them out to be. Some things are normal and some are on the low end of normal. So still something we have to work with but not as horrible as we were told last time. The problem they think is happening is that the sperm aren't penetrating the egg. So for him, he will continue to take his medication called FertilAid to help with quality of sperm. For me, well, I had a prescription called Clomid that I was supposed to start taking on Christmas day. I had so much anxiety with it that I couldn't get myself to take it. I have heard horror stories with it and deep down didn't feel like I was supposed to take it. So it's been sitting in my cupboard since November. And today after telling this doctor my story and what not, we decided to change routes. This doctor was certain I had diabetes and possibly PCOS. All my symptoms lead back to both of these. :( All four of my grandparents had diabetes which means my parents will 100% get it which means me and all my siblings will get it if we all don't already have it. So, he prescribed me a medication called Metformin. It's for people with diabetes but is also used for people with infertility. Infertility is caused by so so many things and diabetes is one of them. So with Caleb's not great sperm, me now being a diabetic, and also possibly having PCOS is all possible factors of why we haven't gotten pregnant. Anyways, back to prescriptions. Metformin has some gnarly side effects which I am NOT looking forward to. There is a girl I work with going through Infertility and is taking it and has thrown up multiple times a day since starting it. It really messes with your gut for a good while till your at your optimal dose. So yeah, that should be fun. He also prescribed me another medication called Femara. And that is supposed to make my hyperovulate. I already ovulate on my own so I may ovulate 2, 3, 4, even 5 eggs in one cycle. Hence the reason the percentage of multiples goes up. That drug also has some not fun side effects. Mainly crazy mood swings, hot flashes, and can also upset your tummy. That will be taken on top of the Metformin. It's gonna be a doozy few months I tell ya. The doctor wanted me to try and lose some weight. I have tried and tried and tried for years and fail every time. The diabetes and PCOS would answer why I can't. So i'm hoping this medication makes it easier for me to do so as it balanced out sugars and all that diabetic stuff. So good thing we just bought a treadmill! I HAVE to use it now. haha. And then lastly, next cycle, we will start the Femara and then do an IUI. We can do 3 rounds of IUI. But if we still aren't pregnant after the 3rd IUI, we will head to Utah to do IVF with ICSI. I have seriously never prayed so hard for something to work out. I am praying we don't have to go to Utah. That is so much money. Even today we spent $175 just for the doctors and another $45 dollars on medications. Total each month with the IUI's will cost us probably close to $600 a month including visits, medications, and procedures. That's a whole lot cheaper than $20,000.00 ! So, prayers are welcome :) We are trying to stay positive, hopeful, and cautiously optimistic. A family will happen one way or another. Clearly it's not how I planned of getting one and God is teaching us something. We are strong. We are happy. We are hopeful.