The Niederer's: One day at a time

It's been quite a week. Fertility meds = sickly people over here. The medication I am on has been a doozy. The first week I was doing ok. I had mainly headaches, some dizzyness, and heart burn but overall I felt pretty good. I figured, well, sweet! Allll the rotten things I had heard about this drug isn't going to affect me! I was so far one of those, "lucky ones". Well, Sunday comes around and I had to double my dose. Sunday I just felt weird. Not myself. My stomach was off, and just felt weird. I don't know. Sunday night, I started to really not feel good. That was after I had my second dose of meds that day. Monday came and man, I was miserable. I felt like I had the full blown stomach flu. I kept telling myself, "it's just the drugs. Anything for a baby." But I was in bed alll day long. I watched you tube and movies all day and just layed around. Nothing would stay in my belly. Not even a sip of water. So I hardly ate, I really didn't want to eat. I had no appetite whatsoever. Long story short, I took work off on Tuesday because this was kicking my trash. I called my doctor and pharmacist and was told I could lower my dose some. YES. THANK YOU. So Tuesday I lowered my dose a little and have done quite a bit better. Definitely better than Mon. and Tue. I still am nauseous every day, especially mornings, have heart burn like I have never had before, nothing stays in my belly, I have headaches, and just simply don't feel good. stomach pills, and tums have taken the edge off. I have been told by everyone that takes this drug to eliminate most carbs/if not all carbs, greasy or fried foods, sugars and reeeaallly watch the dairy intake. To be honest, it's been so flippin hard. What doesn't have carbs or sugars? Like seriously? I am such a picky eater and to all of a sudden just drop eating out, stop eating my favorite foods and snacks completely is so hard. And it's not like I will just feel a little sick if I eat them, it's like, realllyy baddd. And where I have a job and responsibilities makes it so much harder. On the plus side of it all, I believe I have lost some weight. 4 people at work told me I look smaller so that's huge to me. I haven't been able to lose a pound in 3 years. So I think changing my diet and also these pills alone make people lose weight. So as far as that goes, I am not complaining, but still. Anyways, so last night as I was venting to my sister of how hard this is for me trying to think of something, ANYTHING to eat and keep down, she offered to drive here today, help me grocery shop and meal plan. Awh. The anxiety went away. She came over this morning, gave me a list of meals she looked up the night before that would maybe work, gave me her recipe book to look through, and shared some tips and what not, and also went grocery shopping with me. It meant so much to me. I know I could have figured it out but I am not a good cook/don't really know how to cook/HATE to cook, and this whole food ordeal was really stressing me out. So, thank you sister. I seriously appreciate it!

And another plus to her coming by today..baby snuggles. :) So for me, REALLY changing my whole lifestyle in a matter of a few days has been a bit rough. But anything for that baby right?? ugh. I think it wouldn't be so difficult if I knew FOR SURE that this is going to get us one. If I knew that it would for sure happen, I'd be more happy about taking my meds every day. haha. And I think the thing that makes it worse, is knowing that I am supposed to up the dose again in a few days and here in about a week start up another kind of fertility medication. hmph :(

As for Caleb, yes, he too get's sickly with his dose of drugs as well. It's nothing new to see a barf bucket by either side of our bed just in case. What do you do right? We just decided to take one day at a time. Take one dose at a time, and deal with things as they come. That's all you can do right? I just hope and pray that all this not so fun household at the moment will be worth it someday.

Thank goodness we have each other to lean on during these not so fun moments. Caleb has been NOTHING but sweet to me. I appreciate his positive outlook on things and keeping me laughing during the rough days. And, sorry for the negative post. Next one I'll be sure to make it a happy one.