Reunions and catch up

I haven't blogged for a while and now I almost have forgot what all has happened. We'll start with the Luthy reunion. Long story short, this reunion has been planned for the past year. I at first wasn't going to go because of anxiety. About a month before the reunion I started to consider it. I went back and forth for WEEKS and still couldn't make up my mind. Finally an hour before my parents were leaving, I decided to go. I showered, got ready and had packed to go camping within an hour. It was just me and kinley that could go since Caleb had to work.

I rode down with my parents, brother, and sister. It was about a 6 hour drive to Payson lakes where the reunion was held. We stayed two nights there. It was pretty fun but a lot of work with a baby which almost made me feel like it wasn't worth it. Ha. Maybe when she's older. I missed out on a lot because of it but still had a good time and it was fun to catch up with cousins I haven't seen in years. 

Next off, we did a day at the zoo with some of Caleb's family. 

We did the zoo and a picnic. Kinley had fun. She still gets pretty overstimulated I think and if there's too much going on she gets grouchy. Haha

Last weekend we had the Niederer reunion. We didn't end up camping with everyone else because it's just too much work, so we ended up just going for all of Saturday. It was held in Ashton. We mostly hung out but then that afternoon some of us to the drive to cave falls. It was pretty. I don't think I had been there before. Lots of mosquitoes and sweat from the heat but it was a fun day. 

4th of July was a fun day too. We took kinley to the parade that morning and sat with some of his family at his grandma's house. After the parade, we came home so kinley could nap, then later went to my parents for dinner and to see all of my family. We called it a night pretty early since we all were just tired. No fireworks for us old folks haha! 

Here's some random pictures throughout the last month or so. 

I've had 2 haircuts done at a salon in the past month which is the first time in almost 3 years. 

Kinley came down with yet again, another cold. Poor thing. I don't know why she gets sick so much but we're gonna have her tonsils looked at I think. 

Caleb has been good. He's been staying busy with work. July is a busy month which is awesome. Juds is doing great which is a blessing. 

I've been doing pretty good too. Still battling some mental health issues but with counciling, it's been a tad more manageable. I still have a very long ways to go. I've kind of come to conclusion that I'm pretty sure I have post partum anxiety and it's just never gotten easier. Between that and the whole kinley being sick with seizures were extreme triggers for me. I'm working on it every day all day and hopefully one day I can be more myself again.

Kinley is also good. Like I said, she did come down with another week plus long cold. Snot, puke, no sleep, coughing, awful. Her sleep is still awful. I average tending to her in the night probably like 8 times each night. I have completely stopped trying to get her back to sleep and down in her crib and have started just putting her in our bed after she wakes up the first time. I'm beyond tired of fighting it every. Single. Night. It's not been the best just because she is up, cries in her sleep all night, squirms, kicks me in the face, hits me or whatever allllll night long, but it's better than being awake for hours upon hours in the rocking chair each night. It's kind of a lose lose situation and I don't know if It will ever get better. Each night is so long. I see lots of hours every night. But, I do get more sleep with her in our bed than with her in her crib. So I'll take what I can get. I know it won't last forever so one day it'll be just me and Caleb in our bed and I'll have room to sleep comfortably. Ha. She's become pretty sassy and I feel like we're hitting the terrible twos. She's been so fun, saying new things every day, but has also become that much harder. We love her so much though and she's a hoot to be around. 

Life has been busy, hard, fun, and all the emotions.