31 Weeks!

31 weeks pregnant! Woo hoo!

I'm feeling so thrilled to be to this point. Not that much longer! Really, nothing much has changed from last week. I'm still feeling large, uncomfortable, sick, and all things pregnant, yet, I am getting more and more excited to meet this baby. I think the best way to describe all of it is that I'm a happy turtle. haha Happy, yet slow at everything. I have been having so many braxton hicks contractions and those definitely slow me down. Also! A little update on my pregnancy rash. It's basically gone! I am SO relived it went away with that prescription and that I didn't have to wait till birth for it to leave. I think having it for about 2 months is plently long enough. It was miserable. I do have scars on my leg and foot from scratching so hopefully those purple scars will fade over time. I'm sure they will. As ugly as they are, I'm just glad that the rash is gone and that I can sleep, and function again. I wouldn't wish that rash on my worst enemy. So, overall, the pregnancy is going good. I have another doctors appointment tomorrow along with another ultrasound. Hopefully all goes well with those. 

This last week I went with my sister to get some baby shower supplies and while we were out and about, we went to Sam's Club. They had this offer going on for pregnant women or mom's with a child under 1. So, both me and my sister snagged a free 1 year membership. Pregnancy pays off with stuff like this. haha I had never owned a Sam's card before mainly because I probably wouldn't use it enough to make the 45 dollars a year even worth it. But, now that I got it for free, It will come in handy at times. I also met up with my sister and a couple of our friends for lunch in the park for the first time in years. I typically am NOT one that enjoys to meet up with people. It gives me major anxiety and I'd much rather just stay at home. But, it ended up being a lot of fun. We talked all things pregnancy/birth/baby since 2 of us are prego, another just had her baby about a month ago, then my sister has her baby. It was nice to talk about all the scary stuff, or funny/embarrassing things of pregnancy. Eased my mind some and was nice to talk about it all. 

This is the first week in months that Caleb's schedule has gone pretty much back to normal and it's been so so great! Instead of him working 6 days a week with 1 to 2 double shifts in there plus sometimes going out on Sunday, he is now working just 5 days a week. Normal hours, normal shifts, and still may have to go out on Sundays, but depends on the week. It's been great having him home at night. I appreciate all the hard work he puts in for us. He's awesome!

I came down with a cold or something. So that on top of being pregnant is kind of brutal. I feel quite awful, but I'm hoping that drinking my weight in water will have this cold be sent on it's way sooner than later. 

It's like she knows I haven't felt well and she'll come and snuggle. I love it! I also was able to get all my baby shower invitations out, party favors made, and most of the decorations bought this last week. There's a couple more things I'm going to do to get ready for it including a couple crafts, but it's coming along. I'm both nervous and excited for this shower. 

We never got around to moving our furniture to make room for baby girl last week, but for sure we need to do it this weekend because next week is my baby shower and I'm hoping to be able to come home and have a place for the things we receive.

30 weeks and de junking

I am 30 weeks pregnant today! It feels like another milestone hit. I am happy we have made it this far and realistically, this baby could come in 7 to 10 ish weeks! Eeek!

A little recap on the last week. So, I would say as far as how i'm feeling, this last week has for sure been one of the harder weeks of being pregnant. I don't know how to describe it other than I feel very pregnant! Large, uncomfortable, achy, and kind of miserable at times. I feel my best if I literally do NOTHING all day and can just sit. Even doing my few household chores for the day seriously makes me feel completely done for the day. It's been a little frustrating because I just feel like a crippled old lady and have to really balance out my errands, chores that need done, meals made, stuff like that for the week. A little every day and that's about all I can do. I constantly have a heat pad or our massage thing on my back, and my feet propped up. I have had SO many braxton hicks contractions. They are definitely uncomfortable and get worse or happen more often If I haven't eaten in a while, or haven't drank as much water as I should be drinking. I'm so sleepy all hours of the day. I have dealt with horrible heartburn most of my pregnancy but this last week it's been horrendous to where I WISH I would just throw up already. It's been just awful! I have tried anything and everything so I'm thinking at my next appointment I'll have him give me a prescription for it because it's been just horrible. My belly has just been rolling and moving like crazy lately. It's so fun to watch! She for sure is getting bigger and being able to feel her and now see her move all the time has for sure been a favorite while being pregnant. I forgot to mention a a few weeks ago that I was out at my parent's one night and my mom, and two sisters were all gathered close with their hands on my belly and all 3 of them felt baby kicks. It was a special moment that I won't forget. :)

Seriously! Watch her come out as a baldy. haha

After tons of ups and downs for months and months, as of right now, it's looking like we will have to stay here in this apartment for when this baby gets here. That could change any time, but as of now, that's the plan. I'm not gonna lie, i'm very bummed. It's not at all what we had planned. This place is small. It's SO squishy as is with just me and Caleb here. So, making room for even the essentials is going to probably make it so we don't get to set up a Christmas tree this year :(, all of her things will be in the living room/kitchen, and a TON of our stuff including seasonal clothes will have to go into storage to make this work. I know there could be worse things but we were really hoping to be out and in a place of our own before she came and I was SO looking forward to snuggling a baby around the Christmas tree this year. Since there really isn't much we can do about it, we'll make the best out of what we have and just make it work. It will be hectic, it will be very unorganized, it will probably continue to stress me and my ocd organized self out till we move, but, it's at least a place to live for now. So this last week we started the whole de clutter/ cleaning/ moving things around to make this work. Caleb had Saturday off so that day we went through our bedroom. We both had to get rid of TONS of clothes and shoes so that it would all fit in our little closet. That took up hours that day and that's all we did that day. On Sunday, we ended up cleaning out our spare bedroom. This room is a mess. It's basically our storage room that holds ALL our stuff plus all of Caleb's grandma's furniture since this apartment was furnished when we moved in. It took up many hours that day. We got rid of SO much stuff that had been just collected over the past 5+ years, threw tons of stuff away, and deep cleaned what we could until we get the stuff moved to a storage unit. Although it felt VERY refreshing to de junk, throw away, and clean up the place, I could totally tell that I WAY over did it. I had a friends baby shower that I was supposed to attend that night and I seriously didn't know if I was going to make it. I have been having plenty of braxton hicks contractions lately but on Sunday, I was seriously having them back to back which was making me nervous. My feet felt raw, my stomach just hurt and was tight tight tight all day long, and my back and hips were done. I had NO time to sit or lie down because I had to get ready for the baby shower that night. I felt awful all day and that was seriously the first day that my pregnant self reeeallyy told me I over did it. I ended up going to the baby shower which ended up being a lot of fun, and it was nice that I could finally sit for a couple hours for the day. It got me excited for my shower coming up and also just brings more reality of the fact that we will be having a baby! I started feeling better that night but I zonked when I got home. I am not really sure how I will be much help when we are moving stuff around because my body just tells me enough is enough and I just can't do it. I don't want to risk anything by overdoing it either so thank goodness for a husband that has already told me time and time again that he will do all of it. 

Don't judge, but, that's my living room. All those bags, tv, shelf, stereo, pretty much everything but the baby stuff, treadmill, and couches (that aren't even ours) we took to the di. It's pretty much what my house feels like lately. Stuff is just squished and there's just no where to put things. It's been overwhelming but that's what we have been up too! Now that we have de junked our place, we are hoping that this weekend we can get things moved around/ taken to a storage unit so that we can start setting up some stuff for this baby. I'm hoping I can organize and squish things around enough to leave a place we can set up our Christmas tree for this year. That's really all I want. Even if it's in our bedroom in the middle of the floor. I want that to go up. So, that's my goal. We shall see if all my teen years of playing tetris will pay off ;) 

Another thing from this last week was that me and my sister did each other's hair. Long story short, mine ended up not blended and the color was just off and I didn't have the right color at home to tone it and make it work. So I had to re plan and go with a different route so it would look better. I ended up fixing my hair over the course of a couple days. It's a bit better now but I'm to the point of just letting my ugly natural hair grow out so I don't have to deal with it anymore. That's I suppose why I don't just let it grow. I'm not a fan of my natural and I for sure like my highlights in there. I have a hard time going to pay to get it done where I'm a hairstylist myself and know what to do yet I just can't see the back of my head and can't angle everything so I'm just in the process of making it work for now.

My nephew's birthday is tomorrow but we ended up celebrating it last Saturday at my parent's house. We had a weenie roast and just kept it simple. It ended up being a fun night! I can't believe it's been a year since he was born! Seems like it was just yesterday!

Caleb has worked a bunch extra this week so he is never home. It's getting depressing! I miss him every second he is gone. I could never be a truck drivers wife, or have my husband be in the army because I emotionally could not handle it! I don't know how people do it. Libbie has been my little buddy while he's at work. Thank goodness for her. 

Overall life is still good! A bit stressful at the moment or more so just a lot of emotions and things going on, but, we're just taking it one day at a time and still just trying to stay positive about this whole apartment thing. I am LOVING the fall weather coming. I am a sucker for fall. On the cooler days I have been breaking out my long sleeved shirts and jackets and just LOVE it! 

Wyoming

Long story short, my amazing cousin had some boxes full of baby clothes for both me and my sister Shandell. She lives about 4.5 hours away so instead of us driving clear down there to get these clothes, she sent them with her parents that were visiting her brother that live in Wyoming. It would be a WAY shorter trip. I SUPER appreciate her kindness and helping me out with giving me adorable baby clothes for when this baby comes.

So, early this morning, I met up with my sister at my parents and then we headed off to Thayne Wyoming to pick up these baby clothes. It really wasn't too bad of a day. I was kind of dreading having to drive that far just to pick up clothes but it ended up being a fun little day trip with my sister and her cute little boy. The drive up was so pretty. I had actually never been past palisades before so going beyond that was a new site to me and it was beautiful all the way up! The leaves are changing on the trees so the fall colors made for a pretty drive. We really do live in such a gorgeous area! I love love love all the mountains and scenery we have here in Idaho and surrounding places.

Besides getting stuck behind 3 SLOW tractors for half an hour, some road construction that held us to a stop for about 15 min, and Wyoming drivers that drive SLOW as dirt, we made it there in about 2 hours. Talk about my road rage intensifying! Good grief. Anywho, we met up up with my cousins wife and grabbed the boxes of clothes, gassed up, then headed to an area that had a picnic table and some grass so we could eat our lunch we packed and let Kash get his wiggles out.

It was a beautiful day there. Perfect weather. It felt nice to sit and have a little picnic! After we ate lunch and let Kash play for a bit, we made one last stop at the gas station for a bathroom break before we hit the road. This time it only took us like an hour and a half to get back. And that's including having to be at a stop for about another 15 min at the road construction spot. We got back at a good time and it felt kind of nice to get out yet not do much (because lets be real, I don't feel like doing much these days).

I went through all the clothes that were given to me and It's making me excited to have baby girl be here so I can dress her up in these cute clothes! It will be fun to wash and sort them out. Just that much closer to her being here! I cannot wait!!

29 weeks/ 3 hr glucose test

Yesterday marked me as 29 weeks pregnant. Woop woop!

Not the best pic. but you get the idea.

I had my doctors appointment yesterday and I wasn't really looking forward to it. Caleb took the day off (the first day he's had off in a little over a month) so he could come to my appointment with me which I was so excited for, but I didn't want to waste his day off at the doctors all day. We both woke up feeling awful. So we were ready to get this appointment done and over with. I was nervous because I didn't want to hear my doctor say that I needed to take the 3 hour glucose test. That's pretty much the only reason I wanted to avoid the appointment. I get there and everything looks great. I've gained 3 pounds which I am happy with. I'm REALLY hoping to not gain a lot this pregnancy. I'm measuring about 2 weeks ahead and have been pretty much at every appointment. So, next appointment they are doing another ultrasound for a growth scan just to make sure she's not going to be coming earlier than we think. The doctor did say I did need to do the 3 hour glucose test. :( noooooo. I deep down knew, but I was REALLLLY hoping to get out of it. I now am seeing the doctor every two weeks too. So a lot, and that means the end is getting near! 

I came home and told Caleb that I was going to do the glucose test the next day so I could stop worrying about this stupid test. I was sick of worrying about it and just wanted it to be done. Before, I REALLY wanted Caleb to be able to be with me ESPECIALLY at this appointment, but because he worked that morning and it was a double shift, he wouldn't be able to come, and to be honest, I was worried going alone, but I just really wanted it done. So I fasted from about 9:30 last night till the test was done today. I hardly slept a wink last night. All my dreams were of me taking the test, so when I was woken up to actually go take it, I was bummed because I just did the test in my dream. I woke up at 7 this morning so I could be at the hospital by 7:30 to get this test a rollin. I got there, checked in, waited, and waited some more, and FINALLY the lab guy came to take my first blood draw. After that, I had to wait to get my numbers checked with that blood draw before they let me drink the drink just to make sure I wouldn't crash after drinking it. This whole time I'm just chillin in the hospital lobby, by myself, just hangin out. Finally a half an hour later he comes back with the drink. I didn't get to chose a flavor this time, and it was warm. Having it not refrigerated makes it that much harder to get down. The guy sat next to me to make sure I had it drank in the few minutes they give you. I thought the 1 hr glucose drink was sugary, but this one where it has double the sugar is wayyy more sugary. To the point it almost kind of gives you a burny feeling in your throat. Not tasty by any means. I get the drink down which means the test has started. Only 1 stinkin hour after I got there. Kind of annoying. I ended up bringing my laptop and some movies to kill time since I wasn't allowed to leave. So, there in the lobby, I set up my own little corner, had a tiny hard couch to myself, plugged my laptop in and started watching my movie. 

The first hour was kind of a doozy. I definitely felt yucky. I was nauseous, a bit dizzy, and just felt gross. I tried to just lay still and get through it. I was told if I puke this up that I would have to start over a different day and I was NOT about to let that happen. So in I held it. After the first hour, the guy came back to get my 2nd blood draw. Then back out to the lobby to continue my movie. About midway through the 2nd hour, I started feeling a little better. Still kind of yucky, but not quite so nauseous or dizzy. An hour later, the guy came back to take me to the lab again for my 3rd blood draw. Then back out the lobby I went. I finished my show with a half hour of time to kill. I put all my stuff away and just hung out. I read a magazine, browsed my phone, and stared at the wall basically. Finally the hour is up and I go get my 4th blood draw. By this time I'm feeling decent. Mainly like I was ready for some real food. I hadn't eaten in like 15 hours. That's a long time for a prego! I had been there for a little over 4 hours. I drove home, made me some food, then crashed. I had a headache for the rest of the day too. I know it sounds silly but I'm like seriously proud of myself for getting through the test, especially alone! It was one of my biggest fears this whole pregnancy. I hate needles, I don't like being sick, I was worried I was going to pass out or vomit all over or something. The fact I got through 4 blood draws, and kept the drink down was impressive to me. I was SO relieved it's over. I have so far had 10 blood draws this pregnancy and 1 shot. I always think of people that have to have needles on the daily or people that have health problems to where they have to have needles all the time. My heart goes out to them because it is not fun! It makes my 10 blood draws and 1 shot look like a weeks worth to some. Anyway, I ended up calling my doctor before their office closed to see whether I passed this 3 hour test. This was the for sure moment I would know If I either had gestational diabetes or not. I was nervous! The nurse looked me up and said that my numbers looked great and that I had indeed passed the test. WAHOOO!!! That means I will probably buy myself a bag of candy corn while I'm out grocery shopping tomorrow and not even feel bad. I'm honestly relieved. I still think about my family and friends that does or did have gestational diabetes and I almost feel guilty for passing this test. I tried to watch what I ate since the last couple of my glucose tests and it is HARD to count carbs like that and not over do it on pretty much everything. It's frustrating and just simply kind of hard, and I didn't even do it to the full extent. I still want to be careful with how many carbs I'm putting into my body but to know I don't have to prick myself multiple times a day and count every carb I eat is a relief. I feel like the biggest weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel I can now try to enjoy what weeks of pregnancy I have left (although it's getting harder and harder every week). I think my next fear is giving birth. The IV and not being able to eat are scaring me more than actually delivering. Silly, I know. But, it's the truth. 

As far as how I am feeling, well, I'll be honest, this last week especially I have been just so nauseous. It doesn't seem to leave, or if it does, it's usually during early afternoon for a while. But then at night it kicks right back up. I think it's pretty normal to start to feel sick again 3rd trimester. Along with the nausea I am just down right TIRED. I will sleep all night (most nights) and sleep wayyy late in the morning. I just don't have energy to do anything. Getting ready for the day seriously about does me in and even during that I feel I have to sit because my legs feel they are going to give out. It's weird. I don't ever want to go out and do anything because I just would rather sit. Makes me sound so lazy, which is true, but, it's the truth. Other than those, I have been having way more backaches, some hip pain, and quite a few braxton hicks contractions. I overall feel pretty uncomfortable, my stomach is tight, I feel sick a lot, i'm tired, achy, and just kind of over being pregnant. I'm ready to have this baby and I still have like 2 good months. I'm trying to enjoy the good moments but it's hard. 

I did do my registry on Amazon which was pretty fun to make. It took me a while! I'm nervous because it made me realize that we seriously do not have much and don't even have the essentials for when this baby comes. But, having that done means baby shower next. So that will be coming up and I'm looking forward to that. 

I also received my crib bedding in the mail the other day.

I'm excited about it! I got a steller deal on it. It's a 13 piece crib/ room set that I got for the price that just the crib bumpers and skirt would be. I'm excited to set it up when we actually have a spot/place to set up the crib and nursery. 

All in all, things are going good. I really can't complain. I'm getting more anxious, yet more excited to meet my little sweet pea in just a couple months or so! 

28 weeks prego/ glucose test round 2

Today I am 28 weeks pregnant. Officially 12 weeks till my due date. Could be sooner, or even longer till we meet this baby. I'm feeling like it's kind of becoming the home stretch as things are getting closer and I become bigger.

This belly of mine is seriously starting to get in the way of every day things. It's hard to find a shirt that's not too short in the front, it gets bumped when I open the fridge, getting out of bed I may grunt or huff and puff to roll myself out, ya know, those kinds of things. I feel I could go on and on about the aches and pains I'm continuously having, sciatica that will not leave, the nausea and heartburn that seem to stay, and the uncomfortable things of pregnancy. But, I'll spare you the details on all of that. I did notice this last week especially that I believe I am starting to have braxton kicks contractions. They're kind of uncomfortable and if I get one while walking, they usually really slow me down for the minute its there. For a while I thought it was just baby moving in a weird position that made me feel what I was feeling, but then it occurred to me that I'm most certain that it's the braxton hicks contractions I'm feeling instead. That means we're getting closer which is exciting, yet, a bit overwhelming.

This last week I have once again been feeling just overwhelmed. It's stressful bringing a baby into the world. It's a lot of emotions. Everything from being so nervous and stressed to completely excited. I think the things that are most overwhelming to me at this point is, 1. The fact that this babies due date is creeping up and there is still so much to get I feel like. We still don't know where we'll end up living so we have nothing set up or organized. Everything we do have is sitting smack dab in the middle of my living room for now still in boxes, chillin on my couch, or stuff in my dad's shop because I just do not have anywhere else for it to sit at the moment. I'm such a planner and organizer so all the stuff being all over is making me feel stressed. Number 2. The fact that we don't know where we will be living. Yes, that's been killing us both. If we stay, there's so much re arranging and storage units to find and organization that needs to be done that I don't know how we'll make it work. Yet if we move, that would solve everything I feel like, but I have a feeling that if we do, it'll be weeks before this baby comes which is just overwhelming. All this depends on Caleb's job and right now there just isn't a clear answer as to where we'll end up. and 3. The fact that this baby will make it so it will never just be me and Caleb alone ever again. obviously I know that we can still have alone time, but I mean, that there will NEVER be a time that it's just us two. And as exciting as that is, it's also just making me feel a bit clingy to Caleb. It's only been us the last 5+ years and to all of a sudden bring in someone that's here to stay forever is kind of just crazy to think about. Like I said, it's stressful, yet all so exciting.

I said in a previous post how I failed my 1 hour glucose test and after a huge hassle I was going to retake the 1 hour test rather than do the 3 hr test. That day was last Tuesday. Long story short, because my 1st test levels were not too far from passing, I was hopeful that for this round, if I fasted from midnight on till I took the test that I would pass my glucose test. That's what the nurse told me too. She said that by fasting for 8 hours prior would probably help my test levels. So, I was hopeful! Tuesday, I woke up super early. I didn't do my makeup or anything because I just wanted to get down to IF and get this test over with. Caleb came with me once again thank goodness. Just him coming for support is great. He slept pretty much the whole time because the waiting was done in our car. Haha

This time the test was a little harder just because I was starving. I normally will wake up in the night to eat sometimes and for sure eat when I first get up. So skipping both and having that sugar on my stomach was a little harder. It still wasn't horrible, and I survived. After the test was done, we went and got McDonald's breakfast and then just headed home. I waited all day to find out my results. I wasn't sure when I would get them. Later that day and just before my doctors office closes, I ended up calling them to see if they had my results. The nurse looked me up and told me I had once again failed the test, this time way worse than the first test. :( Ugh. I was so frustrated. I had talked to a friend of mine that has gestational diabetes the day previous about it all and she reassured me that no matter what happens all will be ok. I feel like I handled the situation better than the first round, but, I'll admit that I still cried a lot that night. With my history, my numbers of both glucose tests, and my luck, I am just about positive I'd fail the 3 hour test. Long story short, I refused to do the 3 hour test till I talk to my doctor at my next appointment which is here in a week. I will do what I have to do but for some reason that 3 hour test just simply terrifies me. I'll see what my doctor says about it all and just go from there. It's hard to not feel embarrassed about the whole thing. I know the healthiest of healthy people can get gestational diabetes, but it's still just a lot to take in. Like I said, I don't know for sure if I have it or not, but the way the nurse talked to me about my scores from both tests made it seem there really wasn't much hope of getting away with it all. So, that's that for the diabetes update. I'll know more when I see my doctor next week. 

As for some fun news, Caleb came home from work with the cutest thing I ever did see!

He brought home a baby shirt! The restaurant has never had baby shirts before so when he brought it home I died! It's 6 months so she won't wear it for a little while but I still can't wait for the times we go visit daddy at work while she wears her cute little matching shirt her dad got for her. Proud dad right here. :) He's adorable!

5 year anniversary! Reliving our wedding day.

Holy toledo I cannot believe it's been 5 years since me and Caleb got married. 5 years!! That's a long time! 5 years ago I remember so many things, so many emotions. I remember getting ready for our wedding and how I seriously did not really care how things were for the reception. I didn't take any time doing any searching around for that perfect wedding. For my cake I had something in mind and it didn't turn out how I planned and I seriously just didn't care. My bouquet, I told the florist my colors and said "surprise me." Dress shopping, I tried on a bunch and only tried on dresses from two stores. I found one I liked and that was good for me. Music? I never knew people had music at weddings. Bouquet toss? I didn't want to get rid of mine so I didn't do it. Garder throw? I would feel awkward so I didn't want to do it. Dancing? Nah, wasn't feelin it. I was never one that "dreamed" of my wedding. I didn't care about exact things. All I remember was that I wanted the wedding to be nice, obviously, but what I was really excited for was getting married! I look back and think I probably maybe should have cared a little more about the reception and decorating and what not, but, like I said, to me, I was excited about getting married, not about a cake I would have 1 bite of then toss.

I remember getting all settled in to our first apartment. I had moved into the apartment alone about a week prior to the wedding. We had a nice apartment, but hardly anything to fill it. I remember the night before the wedding that that was the last night I would sleep alone. I couldn't wait to start a life with someone I loved with all my heart.

The day of the wedding, I woke up to NO power. It was kind of stressful! How was I supposed to get ready? Do they still go through with weddings if there's no power? I had gotten up plenty early that morning so I would have tons of time to get ready. The power did come back on but I do remember kind of scrambling trying to get ready because my time had been cut short.

The wedding itself was amazing. I was giddy, excited, and so in love with Caleb. It was special and private, and we were surrounded by the people we loved. I felt beautiful that day. I loved every moment.

After the wedding and pictures, we headed to the church for a luncheon. Our boss at the time made our lunch for free as our wedding gift to us. We had pulled pork, and a bunch of side dishes. I remember just being next to Caleb the whole day. We were glued at the hip. We were so happy. We were finally husband and wife. It felt surreal, yet amazing! Where the luncheon was held was also where the reception would be. So after we ate, everyone set up for the reception while I spruced up. I remember thinking that I wish some things had looked differently, but there was no changing it now and it really didn't matter. 

I remember the reception was long. We had quite a few people come support us, but I didn't know half the people that came. :/ I felt like plenty of conversations would always end up with them saying, "Ghalee, I remember you when you were just a tiny thing. Now you're all grown up". It had been a long day and both me and Caleb were hungry and ready to head out. We cut the cake, changed, and were outta there. 

After getting into our crazily decorated car, we were outta there and on our way to taco bell. haha! 

The rest of the night was just surreal that we were actually married! We headed back to our apartment for the night, and then left for our honeymoon the following day.

Life with Caleb has been nothing but amazing. These past 5 years spent with him have hands down been the best years of my life. I love the man he is and how he treats me. I am very blessed to be a wife to such an incredible guy. I have loved being able to share life with someone I love so dearly. I love the big things we've done, like vacations, camping, buying new cars, going on dates, etc., but I especially love the small things in life, like waking up to his handsome face daily, grocery shopping with him, making meals at home with him, watching a show together, or simply just having him home, ya know, just every day life things. I can't imagine life without him. If only there are words to describe the love I have for this guy. 

For our actual anniversary (Sept. 4th) Caleb had to work all day. I wanted to still make the day special even though he wouldn't be home. I ended up leaving him a letter on the bathroom mirror so he would get it before work that morning.

I also did end up ordering him a little gift that's supposed to be just kind of cheesy and funny that he could hang in his man cave or something. I ordered it a week and a half ago and it's still not here. So, that is going to be here I think a week late. Woops. Sorry Caleb :/

That's what they should look like. haha

I ended up doing a huge grocery shopping day so while I was out I bought him his favorite candy, a bag of peanut m&m's and set it on his desk for when he got home. He didn't get home till almost 5:30. We only had the night to do something if we were going to at all. By the time he got home, had our usual nightly chat, it was like 7 o'clock. We were both tired and didn't feel like doing much. We decided to keep the night simple and ended up heading to Subway in our pajamas and went through the drive through for dinner. I like that we both feel like it doesn't have to be big to celebrate a special day.

Happy 5 year anniversary Caleb. I love you more than words could say. Thanks for a wonderful 5 years. I look forward to many, many more. 

3rd Trimester!

Hooray for being 27 weeks pregnant and officially in the 3rd trimester! Time is going slow but fast at the same time. Here's a bump shot...

The belly is getting super big. Things are really starting to not fit. All my non maternity shirts are quite tight. Even most of my pajama shirts are too small. I have a couple BIG shirts and I've basically been living in those and my loosest sweats I own. 

I have had another stressful week if you will. I'm sorry these posts lately have been kind of a down but it's life, and I'm sure things will perk up soon. So, I will just say what I need to and get it off my chest. 

We'll start with my rash. I went in last Friday to renew my prescription. Long story short, my insurance wouldn't cover it till the 7th of this month. So that left me with a week and a half of no stuff for it and that was very frustrating. So I've been using the smallest amounts to get me by in hopes I can make it till next week. I know It won't so that was just frustrating. I pray it doesn't spread without the ointment. But, on the plus side, the rash is getting better. VERY slowly, but surely. It's still definitely there but it doesn't itch as often as it used too. I still have scratch attacks and spots where I've scratched till it's bleeding, but it is getting better. I've had it for almost a month now and If I were to guess, at the rate it's clearing, will probably take another month to two months to go away completely. But, I guess we'll see. Either way, it should clear up with giving birth here in 3 months. 

Last Monday I had my glucose test. Rewind for a bit. For some reason I have been TERRIFIED of doing this test. Even way before I became pregnant. I have dreaded it for as long as I can remember. It's caused me tons of stress and anxiety about the whole thing. I've heard horror stories about it. I do not do well with needles. So the blood draws were terrifying to me, along with possibly feeling sick from the drink. I could care less what the drink tasted like, it was those two things. I was ESPECIALLY nervous to fail this 1 hr test and have to retake the 3 hour one. That was my biggest fear. Probably more so than giving birth. Either way, I knew I had to do this test. I was told to eat 2 hours prior to my first blood draw. So, that's what I did. I got there, had my blood drawn, drank my drink, then sat in the car for an hour because I mainly just wanted to stay still and not make any sickness feelings worse by moving around. Caleb was able to come with me to all of it. He's great. As long as he can keep me calm and laughing i'm usually just fine. And that's what he did. The hour went by fairly quickly and it was time to go back in for the 2nd blood draw. That time went better than the first. 

And that was it. I was done. I survived. It wasn't bad. The worst was probably the blood draws. I overall felt ok. I could feel like my body had plenty of sugar but I was ok. Now the waiting game to see if I passed. I wouldn't get results till the next day. The next morning my doctor called and told me I had failed my test. I failed by 7 points. She told me I had to take the 3 hour test which was my worst fear this whole pregnancy coming true. I hung up and I may or may not have lunged myself onto my bed and cried all morning. I was so worried sick about doing this test. I felt embarrassed that I failed this first test. I called the lab to set up my appointment for the 3 hr glucose test. I also asked what to expect so I can prep myself. She said there that they do 4 blood draws through an IV which makes it so I have to sit in a classroom the whole time along with the sugar drink that has double the sugar compared to the 1 hr test drink. She told me I had to fast and couldn't eat anything past midnight. Great. As if ANYONE would want to go take a 3 hr test, 40 min away from home, drink a highly sugar drink on an empty stomach, get an IV, and sit there and get your blood drawn 4 times. It's straight up torture, ESPECIALLY to a pregnant woman. Oh, and if you puke it up, you have to start over on a different day. Lovely. I just felt scared. Stressed. Very anxious. I knew it had to be done, but I just couldn't stop freaking out about it. 

Well, long story short and after MANY phone calls and frustration, I now just have to retake the 1 hr test but fast doing that one. I cannot tell you how RELIEVED I am for now to not have to do the 3 hour test. I know I may still have to, but I have a 2nd chance at passing this first test. 

One thing that's especially frustrating to me is, that it seems there is NO standard procedure for this. Every doctor seems to do this test different than others. After talking to plenty of people that have had to do the glucose test, some say, fast prior to the test, eat before the test, eat 2 hours or 1 hour before the test, eat as your normally would, only eat protein prior to the test, some get fingers pricked for blood, some get blood draws, some get their blood tested before the test and also after, some only get their blood tested after, some get to drink the drink at home, some don't, like, I don't understand how that can be accurate?! I'm no expert but It seems to me that I'm sure that there are plenty of false positives or false negatives for results. Because there is no standard I find it hard to believe the accuracy of the results which makes me not want to do the test at all. ANYWAY, after all that drama, I will probably be retaking my test some time next week because for now, I want to just not even think about it and not worry about it. It's causing me way too much stress. I seriously prraaayyy I pass this next test. The nurse said If I fast after midnight that I would most likely get a better score compared to my first test where I was told to eat 2 hours prior. So, there again, why the heck would doctors even have you chance it if they know that eating before the test could make you fail it? It doesn't make sense to me. So, here's to round two of the glucose test. I know I'm not in the clear for the 3 hr one but I am hoping that fasting while doing this not so fun test will let me pass and that I can move on with my life. haha

I don't know if the stress and anxiety of the glucose test had me feeling off, or if it's just pregnancy. I honestly think it's maybe a bit of both. I haven't felt great, I'm starting to get nauseous again along with not wanting to eat food. I'm kinda feeling like I am getting more and more ready to meet this baby and not be pregnant anymore. 

Oh! Caleb FINALLY felt baby girl. It's about time! All the times in the past that she's moving like crazy he's at work, or not near me. But he finally felt a few kicks. It's something I've waited for this whole pregnancy. So that was exciting! I think it kind of...idk...I don't want to say weirded him out, but, kind of did at the same time. haha It's just weird to really think about it that that's OUR child in my stomach kicking. Like, I seriously do and am growing a human. It's just crazy if you really think about it. 

As for other news, Caleb has worked about twice as much as he normally does and it's causing me to feel quite lonely. I miss him tons during my days or nights or both when he's gone. I haven't felt great to get out, and I have just been trying to stay occupied here at home in our tiny little apartment. I need more hobbies that aren't so expensive. I love to craft but that gets quite pricey. I look forward to the moments Caleb is here and cherish every second! 

I am looking forward to our anniversary here in a couple days. Even though Caleb has to work, I'm still hoping for it to be a good day, or night when he's home. I'll take what I can get. I am looking forward to Sunday, because it's a day I get with Caleb, and also I fresh new start to a hopefully good week. Life is kinda stressful at the moment but I know it's just life and it too shall pass. I'm still grateful for Caleb's job, the opportunity to be pregnant and feel lots and lots of baby kicks, my marriage, my family, my dog, just all of it. Life is still good. :)